Ku Biar Qalam Berbicara Ku Biar Pena Bertinta

Businessman and Fisherman...and You

2005-02-02T22:19:00.000Z

Not really good picture though, hope you can see the tiny me compare to London Central Mosque! We always pray and ask from Allah for everything, but how many times we turn up to see Him when He calls us...and He only calls us five times a day!

What do you really hope to achieve in life? That question is related to the last question that I have posted for the last few days. And today, I just want to continue elaborating that question with a story between so-called bright-minded businessman and long-lived happiness fisherman. Read this story and you may find that what you are always hoping to achieve, you may be already have it but is that all the thing that you want to achieve?

There was once an American businessman who was sitting by the beach in a small Mexican village. As he sat, he saw a Mexican fisherman rowing a small boat towards the shore and noticed that the fisherman has caught a quite number of big fishes that is known to be a delicacy.

The American was really impressed and asked the fisherman, "How long does it take you to catch so many fishes?"

The fisherman replies, "Oh, just a short while."

"Then why don't you stay longer at sea and you could catch even more? The businessman was astonished.

The fisherman simply does not agree, "This is enough to feed my whole family?" he says.

The businessman then asked: "So, what do you do for the rest of the day then?"

The fisherman replies; "Well, I usually wake up early in the morning, go out to sea and catch a few fishes, then I would go back and play with my kids. In the afternoon, I will take a nap with my wife, and evening comes, I will join my buddies in the village for a drink, we played guitar, sing and dance throughout the night. My day was ever so complete and carefree."

The businessman does not agree with his way of life and offered a suggestion to the fisherman.

"I am a PhD holder graduated from Harvard University, specialises in business management. I could help you to become a more successful person. From now on, you have to spend more time at sea and try to catch as many fishes as possible. And when you have save enough money, you could buy a bigger boat and catch even more fishes. As you go on, you will be able to afford to buy more boats, recruit more fishermen and lead a team of your own. Soon you will be able to set-up your own company, your very own production plant for canned food and do direct selling to your distributors.At that time, you will have moved out of this village and to Mexico city, and then expand your operation to LA, and finally to New York city, where you can set-up your HQ to manage all your other branches."

The fisherman asks, "So, how long would that take?”

The businessman reply: "About 15 to 20 years"

The fisherman continued, "And after that?"

The businessman laugh heartily, "After that, you can live like a king in your own house, and when the time is right, you can go public and float your shares in the Stock Exchange, by then you will be rich, your income will be coming in by the millions!!"

The fisherman ask, "And after that?"

The businessman says "After that, you can finally retire, you can move to a house by the fishing village, wake up early in the morning and catch a few fishes, then return home to play with the kids, have a nice afternoon nap with your wife, and when evening comes, you can join your buddies for a drink, play the guitar, sing and dance throughout the night!!”

The fisherman was puzzled, "Isn't that what I am doing now??"

So, what does one really hopes to achieve in life? First of all, we must think what we suppose to achieve? After that, planning how are we going to achieve our goal. If you realize what I have been talking lately, my entries are relating to each other, because I see when we put something as a goal in our life, then we will strive to achieve it. That goal will determine the way you think, your perception, your paradigm and what you think of what is the purpose of life.

So, now think! Have you put the right goal in your life?

And again, what do you hope to accomplish in the end?

Wallahu ‘alam…

Read, Answer and Play...

2005-01-31T23:39:00.000Z

Don't know what to do...since i'm really tired at that time, having a break...sbb takde bende sgt nak main, dpt main pondok tepon pon jadilah

Answer Me…

Since today is the first day of the spring semester in my second year, I feel very tired starting this morning…maybe still recovering from muscle sore after the indoor football last Thursday. Furthermore, I worked alone in the dissection room this morning, since I am the only ‘girl’ in my group (tersasul mase ckp ngan mazrul td…hehehe I’m the only ‘girl’)… so, nobody want to work on the cadaver…everyone saying, ‘I’m happy enough observing from here’ or ‘I don’t know what we suppose to look for’ or ‘you must be having done it before, right? So, you just carry on’….adeiii malas aku nak layan minah2 Irish nih…ape2 je la korang. Lesson for today, working alone makes you tired.

Then, got clinical attachment, I’m very happy bcoz we have revised on cardiovascular system (CVS)…history taking, blood pressure and heart auscultation…well, I’m quite satisfied although not much I can remember especially in the history taking, the rest are quite okay.

So, that’s all. Thank you for spending your time reading this entry…hehehe

Anyway, play with me! Just answer these questions:

1. What would you do when you feel very very desperately indefinitely boring?

My answer: I will play championship manager, I guess

2. Anything interesting that you have done before when you feel dreadfully tension?

My answer: can’t even think one…ummm, maybe go to sleep

3. What would you do, if someone smokes in front of you, given that you are non-smoker?

(sorry for smokers)

My answer: lari la ke tempat lain yg org tak isap rokok

4. If you are a member of two clubs or societies, and they are organizing an event by

themselves, which are opposing each other, what are you going to do? (ntah korang paham

ke tak soklan nih)

My answer: I believe societies should concern about members’ welfare, so if one
of the clubs ignores my welfare as member; for sure I’m not going to join their events...it is

useless, meaningless and nothing for me.

5. What is the purpose of your life?

My answer: see the comment link

Now, it is your turn! Take it serious guys!

Oh Allah Forgives Me...

2005-01-30T23:54:00.000Z

At the Greenwich, the 0 vertical line. As time goes by, the world and the Greenwich line will complete a round to indicate a day...and in a day, how many time we seek for Allah's forgiveness. Don't let the time makes you died unforgiven.

It is over! Holiday is over! No more holidays…it is the time to get to work. Next term will be the toughest one. Need to study hard. This time, the exam will include everything from the beginning of the course till the end of the next semester. And it will start from tomorrow, the 31st January 2005!

I feel time passes so fast. I feel like just started my holiday, I feel like I’ve just started my holidays a few days ago. But, I have passed 5 weeks of holidays. Starting from the Xmas break, then exam period then 10 days break after exam. During that period of time, I’ve passed the exam, Eid Adha, London trip and I got my exam result already. 5 weeks are short…like pejam celik pejam celik yer citer! It is true when Allah revealed the surah about time, Surah Al-‘Asr, only those who believe and do good deeds, and enjoin on each other truth, and enjoin on each other patience, they will get the success.

I swear by the time, Most surely man is in loss,Except those who believe and do good, and enjoin on each other truth, and enjoin on each other patience. Surah Al-'Asr:1-3

Allah gives us so much time…not only for working, not only for studying and not only for enjoying life. But, Allah also gives us time to make repentance. From the moment we start to breathe until we are unable to breathe, during the period of time, the door of repentance is always opened. It is me who will to pass through the door. It is my feet to walk through the door. It is my heart to initiate everything for my body to make sure I pass through the door. Yes, it is you. Allah has opened the door of repentance, so why should you not enter?

If my life span is only 5 weeks or just like the span of the holiday, then I'm a loser because I didn't use it wisely, for repentance. But Allah still gives me the chance to repent. Astaghfirullah Al-'Azim

We have been educated in a system which brought us away from deen Islam. The system that promotes a material-minded person, materialistic. Person that only consider the end-product, or in Malay ‘hasil’. Everything must be focus on the end-product which is the goal. We don’t really care about how to get it, as long as the objective has been achieved, then we consider ourselves succeed. However, did we? Or had we? Or berjayakah kite? With all this perception in our mind, we don’t see ourselves or reflect ourselves in the day and in the night. It is because we have been taught like that, and our resources are the things that have been taught to us. We don’t refer to the Holy Quran and Sunnah anymore. Example, coupling…it is a norm in our community. We feel good about that and no sense of guilty of doing that. Freely mixed up with opposite sex, like I touch you, you touch la I ;p. It is the system that delicately shaped us. So, when somebody says it is wrong, then we can’t accept it. Why? Because everybody do that.

It is like when we take a bus to any places. So, we pay for it. Okay let’s say the bus is the old style yer system, pakai konduktor punye system…so, we wait for the person to come to us and collect the money from us. Let’s say if one day, the bus conductor can’t collect money from us, coz the bus is so crowded so he or she can’t get to the back of the bus to collect money. Adakah kite akan byr tambang bas tu atau tak? Ahhh..org lain pon tak byr, kite nak byr watpe…syarikat bas tu pon bknnyer rugi sgt pon kalo aku tak byr. We tend to use the word ‘orang lain’, like it is a norm. So, we follow the norm but not the deen. Is it the norm is our deen?

So, if coupling is a norm, then do we have to follow it? If mix up with opposite sex is a norm then do we have to get engage with it? If org lain plagiate keje org lain, kite pon nak ikut same wat keje camtu?

Allah extends His hands in the night to forgive the sinner of the day and extends His hands in the day to forgive the sinner of the night. And Allah always loves to hear excuses from His slave. But, why we turn away from Him? We prefer to ask from other than Allah. We prefer to confess to our boyfriend or girlfriend. We prefer to request from those who have power. And we use to blame God when anything went wrong. Na’uzubillah…

But Allah was not going to chastise them while you were among them, nor is Allah going to chastise them while yet they ask for forgiveness. Surah Al-Anfaal:33

UNTOUCHABLE! (Al-Amru Bil Ma’aruf Wa An-Nahyun ‘Annil Munkar)

2005-01-29T02:20:00.000Z

This fellow was tame but untouchable...found at the Chelsea graveyard. Fed by visitors but they won't let you touch them...they'll never fall into the passby-ers' trap which was Me...hehehe. I hope will be like them...untouchable! Untouchable with all the nikmah of world that I have!

ENJOIN WHAT IS RIGHT and FORBID THE WRONG! My title above is the most appropriate way or term to describe what we called the duty of prophets and messengers, Al-Anbiyya and dae’i, since most of us are more familiar with the term Amar Ma’aruf Nahi Munkar. Anyway, it doesn’t matter, as long as we understand the concept.

And from among you there should be a party who invite to good and enjoin what is right and forbid the wrong, and these it is that shall be successful. Surah Ali-Imran-104

In reality, we seldom see those two; I mean amar ma’aruf and nahi munkar, get together when it comes to practice. Usually, we either see people talking about amar ma’aruf only or they talk about nahi munkar only. So, when people only emphasizing on amar ma’aruf, then munkar have been left out. So who want to manage the munkar? Are we letting the munkar or maksiat just like that? People drink alcohol like ‘horse’. Alcohol becomes a norm. Freesex is a culture and people see it as common. Prayers are no longer important…they are nothing. However, when people do the nahi munkar, they forget to give the alternative for the forbidden one. They always say concert that involve male and female freely mixed up is haram. Listen to the music is haram. Anything is haram. When everything is haram, the question is what is halal then? So, alternatives are important so that people will see the beauty of Islam. However, I think people always go for amar ma’aruf and least number of people went to nahi munkar.

I was really interested when my naqib said early this evening about, extreme or ghulu’ or melampaui batas. When the mufti of Perak, Dato’ Harussani (btul ke ni?) said that Konsert Sure Heboh is haram, then everyone get together, picking up stones and throwing towards him. No matter in the TV channels, radio and newspaper, all parties went against him. Islam does not oppose entertainment, but it must be control and wasatiah. Male and female should not be mixed up together. The musics should not make us out of control…jd cam lupe diri! Head-banging ke, rock ke, Hollywood ke Bollywood ke or even dangdut…if they make us out of control, showing things that should not been showed…then, that’s it! It is obvious and no need to ask for more! Find the alternative. Why don’t we have nasyid, or tilawah quran or alternative music? Is that impossible?

Everything is good if not extreme. Once we go for extreme then it is the time we call for damaging of ourselves. Entertainment is encourage in Islam becos heart needs entertainment, without entertainment the heart will die (Saidina Ali kwj has been quoted saying this phrases). However, everything can be a disaster when we use it in extreme. It is like water. Water is good for us. We use water to make coffee, cappuccino and expresso with esang nyer mike (expresso maker), to take bath, to wash clothes, etc. But, when water comes in extreme, in the huge amount, in a great strength and high pace, then it is a huge wave, an ombak jahat, a tsunami that can kill more than 250 000 people all over the world. Water that can destroy almost a city called Acheh. Water that can swallow a few islands within its limit. And the same goes to entertainment. If we exceed the limit, then we damage ourselves with our hands.

So, it is me, you, you and you and yuyu who are responsible to control the water so that the water won’t invade us! Why we need to do that? It is becos we are the great ummah! The ummah that has been raised up from men to benefit men.

You are the best of the nations raised up for (the benefit of) men; you enjoin what is right and forbid the wrong and believe in Allah; and if the followers of the Book had believed it would have been better for them; of them (some) are believers and most of them are transgressors. Surah Ali-Imran-110

And to benefit men, we need to remind men.

And continue to remind, for surely the reminder profits the believers.Surah Az-Zariyaat-55

RELIEVED!

2005-01-28T11:03:00.000Z

Assalamualaikum and Salam Sejahtera…

Meditating and Posing with the lion statue at the Trafalgar Square in London. It was my good partner...hahaha..poyonyerrrr

Since I wasn’t be able to update my blog becos of some reasons, today I want to summarise events since raye till the released of exam result.

Eidul Adha…This was the second time I celebrated Eid Adha in Belfast. The khutbah given by the khatib aka Brother Jamal Iweida, The President of Belfast Islamic Centre went to emphasize on the same issue like before. The New Mosque Project. Project that needs £1-£2 million to be raised by Muslims’ community in Belfast. However, then, straight after the khutbah, a woman came and grabbed the mic and spoke in Arabic. Well, as a Malay who speaks Malay and know a wee bit English and vey little Arabic, for sure I can’t understand what she was talking about…but, I’m sure it was about the project. Look like she might be disagree about something on it.

Well, as some of you may know, I went to London on the evening of Eid with Ejat…suppose to be with Ik but then, he withdrew his participation in the last minute so that we left with two-person trip! Anyway, London was Dead On! Thanks to my friend in London for his kindness to let us stay in his hostel for 5 nights. London was happening, marvelous and tired. Went out to travel in the morning and then get back in the night. I felt my left medial knee ligament has bruised because I felt pain on it. Feel like it is going to tear apart…huhuhu.

I wish to go to London again becos at that time, I couldn't try the London Eye…huhuhuhu. It was close becos of maintenance works and will be open again to the public in the mid February. Feel like I’m not lucky enough to experience it. I have uploaded some pictures in my webshots account. So, if want to view it, you can just click here.

http://community.webshots.com/scripts/editPhotos.fcgi?action=viewall&albumID=260823442

Finally, the exam result…Alhamdulillah, I pass my autumn semester of 2nd year exam. It was a big relieved for me. I did feel it was the toughest one. Really tough. Honestly, I’m not really happy with what I’ve done during the exam…past papers really help me to survive form this exam…anyway, for the Student Selected Component (SSC), I got PCR (pass with credit) for the second time…bile la nak dpt PD (pass with distinction) plak nih! But, thanks to Allah and all praise be to Allah…couldn’t imagine the feeling that I feel right now…RELIEVED!

Well…the next spring semester will start next week…so, then, the hard time will come again…

p/s: not really in mood of writing…tired, got no idea, feel a back pain after playing indoor football yesterday…huhuhu

EIDUL ADHA...MISS YOU MOM!

2005-01-19T21:41:00.000Z

Tomorrow is the Eid of Adha. Tomorrow also I’m going to London. Just having a break after the exam, withdrawing back my blood cortisol level to the normal range.

Since tomorrow is the Eid, I don’t think I should talk about the history and the lessons as most of you know about it and I don’t really know what to talk about. On the other words, tak cukup ilmu lagi! Anyway, every Eid gives me this kind of feeling…well, being far from family, in Belfast and second time celebrating the Eid out of my hometown…sad ;(

I always phone my parents…talking to them especially my mom…got a lot of things to tell her…anything. For me, as long as I can make her happy then, it is enough for me. There is no other thing that I want the most except looking and feeling my mom’s happiness. If she feels happy then it is everything for me. She’s my mind, she’s my soul. I won’t be telling anything that will make her worry and I will try not to.

I was reading an article and from the time when it is an Eid’s eve, this is one of the sacrification that most of us have received…the sacrification from a mother!

Dalam bahasa melayu nih…rase2nyer sume bleh paham…one more thing, I will be far away from my blog for a couple of days…and for sure, I will have a lot of things to tell you then, InsyaAllah.

Nurse, boleh saya tengok bayi saya?" ibu muda yang baru bersalin itu bersuara antara dengar dan tidak kepada seorang jururawat. Sambil tersenyum jururawat membawakan bayi yang masih merah itu. Si ibu menyambut dengan senyum meleret. Dibuka selimut yang menutup wajah comel itu, diciumnya berkali-kali sebaik bayi tersebut berada di pangkuan.

Jururawat kemudian mengalihkan pandangannya ke luar tingkap. Tidak sanggup dia bertentang mata dengan si ibu yang terperanjat melihat bayinya dilahirkan tanpa kedua-dua cuping telinga...

Namun gamamnya cuma seketika. Dakapan dan ciuman silih berganti sehingga bayi yang sedang lena itu merengek. Doktor bagaimanapun mengesahkan pendengaran bayi itu normal, sesuatu yang cukup mengembirakan si ibu.

Masa terus berlalu... Pulang dari sekolah suatu tengahari, anak yang tiada cuping telinga itu yang kini telah memasuki alam persekolahan menangis memberitahu bagaimana dia diejek rakan-rakan. "Mereka kata saya cacat," katanya kepada si ibu.

Si ibu menahan sebak. Dipujuknya si anak dengan pelbagai kata semangat. Si anak menerimanya dan dia muncul pelajar cemerlang dengan menyandang pelbagai jawatan di sekolah. Bagaimanapun tanpa cuping telinga, si anak tetap merasa rendah diri walaupun si ibu terus memujuk.

Ayah kanak-kanak itu bertemu doktor. "Saya yakin dapat melakukannya jika ada penderma," kata pakar bedah. Bermulalah suatu pencarian bagi mencari penderma yang sanggup berkorban.

Setahun berlalu...

"Anakku, kita akan menemui doktor hujung minggu ini. Ibu dan ayah telah mendapatkan seorang penderma, tapi dia mahu dirinya dirahsiakan," kata si ayah. Pembedahan berjalan lancar dan akhirnya si anak muncul sebagai manusia baru, kacak serta bijak. Pelajarannya tambah cemerlang dan rasa rendah diri yang kerap dialaminya hilang. Rakan-rakan memuji kecantikan parasnya.Si anak cukup seronok, bagaimanapun dia tidak mengabaikan pelajaran. Pada usianya lewat 20-an, si anak menjawat jawatan tinggi dalam bidang diplomatik.

"Sebelum saya berangkat keluar negara, saya ingin tahu siapakah penderma telinga ini, saya ingin membalas jasanya," kata si anak berkali-kali. "Tak mungkin," balas si ayah. "Perjanjian antara ayah dengan penderma itu masih berjalan. Tunggulah, masanya akan tiba." "Bila?" tanya si anak. "Akan tiba masanya anakku," balas si ayah sambil ibunya mengangguk-angguk. Keadaan itu terus kekal menjadi rahsia bertahun-tahun lamanya.

Hari yang ditunggu tiba akhirnya. Ketika si anak berdiri di sisi keranda ibunya, perlahan-lahan si ayah menyelak rambut ibunya yang kaku. Gelap seketika pandangan si anak apabila melihat kedua-dua cuping telinga ibunya tiada.

"Ibumu tidak pernah memotong pendek rambutnya," si ayah berbisik ke telinga anaknya. "Tetapi tiada siapa pernah mengatakan ibumu cacat, dia tetap cantik, pada ayah dia satu-satunya wanita paling cantik yang pernah ayah temui. Tak percaya... tanyalah pada sesiapa pun kenalannya."

Kecantikan seseorang bukan terletak pada fizikal tetapi di hati. Cinta sejati bukan pada apa yang dilakukan dan dihebah-hebahkan tetapi pengorbanan tanpa diketahui. Selagi ibu kita ada di dunia ini, ciumlah dia, cium tangannya, sentiasa minta ampun darinya, berikan senyuman kepadanya, bukannya dengan bermasam muka, kasih ibu tiada tandingannya, ingatlah SYURGA DI BAWAH TELAPAK KAKI IBU, penyesalan di kemudian hari tidak berguna, selagi hayatnya ada, curahkanlah sepenuh kasih sayang kepadanya, 'love u mom'

'HAYATILAH KRISTAL KITA'

I got no picture for this post since I’m waiting for my new camera so that, no need to ask a hand from the others!

Me Out of Exam...No More!

2005-01-18T18:58:00.000Z

Exam? What is exam? Do you know what is exam? Hummm…is it sounds familiar to some of you, right? Okay…let me match those phrases with this one…”The sure calamity! What is the sure calamity! And what would make you realize what the sure calamity is!” or in the other version…”Hari Kiamat! Apa itu Hari Kiamat? Tahukah kamu apakah Hari Kiamat?”

As you know, I’ve finished my exam since today was the last paper. The clinical examination (OSCE)…not so scary yet not so satisfied. Altogether are 8 stations and one rest station. History taking of abdominal pain and diabetes, abdominal examination, eyes and ears examination, blood glucose test, upper limb examination and oral examination were all the stations that I need to perform my skills…don’t know what to say, it’s not much but really push up my adrenaline blood level this evening. Quite nervous all the time especially when it comes to the beginning and also when I need to take history from the so-called diabetic patients. Alhamdulillah…the examiner for the other history taking (GI history taking-my 2nd station) made me feel good especially when he said ‘gooooooddddddd’ and shaked my hand tightly. That was really give me some confident and immediately my adrenaline blood level went down steeply…hahaha..impossible!

Well, everyone feels relieved when the exam is over. So, everybody is looking for movies, games and friends for having nice chatting and makes jokes to each other. I myself got Football Manager 2005 five days ago and the cd is well-placed beside me all the time, just waiting for me to install the program and get on the game quickly. Well, it stares on me all the time. I know it must be saying ‘take me into your CD-drive now, dude! Take me now!’ (ermmm…I’m not schizo guys!) Huh…whatever!

Besides, today I decided not to buy ticket for going back to Malaysia (tiket murah…offer lagi tuuuu…). Well, it is the decision for now. If there is a need for me to go back, then I’ve to! And today also I decided to join the Kelana Convoy European Highlight tour…hope it satisfies since 3 months staying in UK doing nothing is more than bored for everyone…hope I get plan and good plan during the summer.

Back to the exam…when I was cycling to the mosque this evening, I was thinking about how would it be if I get accident before I get myself to the examination hall? For sure, I’m not going to be there. I might be in the hospital ICU or ER if the injuries were bad. I also won’t be cycling right now. And I can’t be doing anything. But, Allah Taala has decided for me that I will be there and performing my skills for the exam.

After finishing my prayer…cycling back home…If I die right now and it is the Qiamah for me…the last day! All of the sudden, something travels from my subconscious part of my brain to the cognitive part of my brain. “Who is your God? Who is your leader? What was the book that you follow? How you spend your teenage time? Where did your money go to? Have you settle down your responsibilities towards your family? etc…” (the exam questions that will be asked in the hereafter…soalan pun dah bocor…but still not everyone can answer them!)

Yes, I’ve finished my exam, but, not the last one. The exam that will decide which way I’ll be placed. Either the incomparable scorching of the Jahannam or the ni’mah of the Firdaus. This is the exam that everyone will face…and the way we face it depends on how well we perform during our life in the world. It is the same if I take the OSCE as an analogy for the test that we will face in the hereafter. If we have put an effort, study smart, work hard, well-practised and well-prepared, for sure we will answer and perform very well during the exam…but, if we not, then you know what will happen. Since everyone will experience death so, there is no way to escape from that fate and what has Allah decided for us. “Kullu nafsin za iqatul maut…setiap yang bernyawa pasti akan merasai mati” (can’t remember from which chapter the verse come from the Holy Quran)

However, if you ask me whether I am ready for the death right now…then my answer is ‘no’. I haven’t sure if I die, is it my good deeds (‘amal) will be heavier than my sins? I’m not sure whether when I die, can I still get ‘amal from what I left in the world? Everything is not sure for me…and again my answer is ‘No’ for the question. A ‘No’ with big letter N, means emphasizing what I feel about myself right now. And…I don’t know when the ‘No’ can be transformed to ‘Yes’. A ‘Yes’ with the big letter Y to show that I’m ready for death and to see the Almighty Allah swt.

Lastly, let us pray so that Allah will grant success to every one of us, for Muslims and for the states of the ummah!

The sure calamity!What is the sure calamity! And what would make you realize what the sure calamity is! (Surah Al-Haaqah:1-3)

Heavy Double!

2005-01-13T13:35:00.000Z

It is Allah who unfolds my life to be what I am right now...Family is the courage...Friends are the company for the goal...And I am just a scorer...Scorer to make it called as a GOAL!

Hummm…sigh…my second day in the exam, second paper. It was terrible. Bad!

Now, what could I do? Oh Allah grants me success for this term exam. I fear of You. I also hope from You. You are Rabbul ‘Izzati. Ya Rabbul ‘Izzati.

Well, I am out of mood today, after the exam. I really really feel very bad and terrible. Very miserable. I think today has been ruined by all the anatomy specimens. From the head to the neck, from the diaphragm to the appendices and from the rectum to the saphenous nerve. Everything makes me feel awful and horrible. Still, the hope is always on. And the hope is only to Allah and Allah will give success. Grant me success my Lord…Amin!

Anyway, I have another frustration for today. Heavy double! My Juventus has been eliminated from the Coppa Italiana competition after drew 3-3 with Atalanta. So, Atalanta goes through the quarter final with 5-3 on aggregate.Arghhh…I am mad with Juventus right now! Bad performance…Luciano Moggi should sell Del Piero to the J-League! Buy good defenders and creative midfields!

I have been following and am a hardcore fan of Juventus since my secondary school. I remembered when I was about 14 years old (form 2 at the time), admiring Zidane, Inzaghi and Del Piero playing with the ball, dribbling, crossing, heading and shooting. Anything they did, I will try to do it on the field during the PJK sessions. Still remember, the teacher that in-charged for that period was a Liga M referee, Nik Ahmad Yaakob.

But now, Juventus is not at the helm they used to be. For me, if Juventus want to be back at the helm of their era, they need to buy defenders and midfielders and sell the so-called Golden Boy, Alessandro Del Piero…hahaha…He is not the same boy as he uses to be before.

Besides, I got another tough question today. This was a very big challenging question. Should reflect to all of you and me. The question goes like this,”What is your goal in life?” Simple right? But the answer is not as simple as the question!

At the moment I heard this question, I answered in my heart, I want to be a neurosurgeon or neurologist making research about the complex functioning of the brain. Anyway, if I think like that, is that the climax in my life that I really want to achieve? Okay, if I am already a neurosurgeon or whatsoever…is that the end of my life? So, after achieving my goal, then I have no goal to achieve anymore? Err… I don’t know.

Certainly, I can afford to buy a car, a house, get married and have children in the future. I will InsyaAllah. But, anyway, all of those things, most of the people can do that, even better. So, those are normal. If I think about the past, what was in the past that I want to do, but I can’t or haven’t done? Or what was in the past that I have wasted?

So, what should be the goal of my life? (Am I knocking anyone’s heart and brain now?...) Actually, I really have no point to write since I’m mumbling about what has happened to me today. Rewinding all the events, all the exam questions and all the people that I’ve met. I just take all the events and reflect to myself.

Currently, my mood is fear and hope to Allah Taala. As Allah said, “Ud’u ni astajib lakum…you pray to Me and I will grant your prayer”

“So have patience (O Muhammad)! Allah’s promise is the very truth, and let not those who have no certainty make thee patience”

Give Me 10 Reasons...

2005-01-12T23:01:00.000Z

I'm thinking...thinking...thinking...huhuhu, penat merenung masa depan

Guys...what always you think when it comes to the exam time? Do you know what I'm thinking right now? hehehe...these are a few questions out of my examination-bounded left cerebral hemisphere...give me 10 reasons for every question...hahahaha...hope you will enjoy my questions since I have to struggle with my examination questionsssss...anatomy and microanatomy....the questions are...

1. Should I go back to Malaysia this summer?

2. Should I buy the Canon Ixus 430 camera?

3. Should I join the Kelana Convoy European Tour?

4. Should I give up with my blog?...hehehehe (this an additional question straightly came up from subconscious part of my cerebellum I think...kuhek2)

So, enjoy them...but do not squeeze too much cerebro-spinal fluid as you may loss your cognitive function later...hahahaha

Day One Over...

2005-01-10T17:32:00.000Z

Almost everyone except my younger brother,he got exam during my elder brother's wedding, so he was the only one that has been missed out

Alhamdulillah…I have ‘killed’ the first one, another two papers to go! Err…suppose to be the paper has ‘killed’ me…huhuhuhu

Well, today post is to cover my routine on yesterday and today together with my post-MCQ paper feelings. Humm…I feel like happy although that paper was tough, I feel like depress becos there were some questions I can’t answer, I feel like regret becos I don’t study properly from the beginning, I feel like nothing…

The paper consists of physiology, pharmacology, epidemiology, medical statistic, sociology and microbiology…contributed into 100 MCQ questions and must be answered within 2 hours. Yes, I successfully managed to answer them within the time limit…hehehe just to answer, I didn’t promise to answer them correctly. InsyaAllah…I will pass or pass with excellent or distinction or credit but at least pass la…InsyaAllah

I called my parents during the weekend and my mom asked some questions

My mom: Lagu mano exam tu? (How is the exam going to look like?)

Me : Takdok la, biaso jah, supo skalo, dio MCQ 100 questions… (No, just like
before, consists of MCQ 100 questions)

My mom: Ooooo…banyok jugok, brapo jey? (Oooo…for how long?)

Me : Ado la dale duo jey (about 2 hours)

My mom:Oooo supo nga abe chik dulu la…500 MCQ questions dale maso brape jey doh, tok

ingat plok. Kot kot soale dio mudoh kot. Mace yes and no answer kot…sebak tu 500

soale. Ghasonyo 3 jey….(Oooo…something like your elder brother la, 500 MCQ

questions within how many hours aaa, can’t remember. Maybe they were easy

questions. Like yes or no answers, that’s why its figure is 500. I think it is for 3 hours)

Me :Ehhh dok dok. Hok ore nih meme susoh, kene tahu banyok detail. Sebak tu paper

nih hok paling susoh, paper like okey skit. (Ehh no no. This one is very hard becos

need to know every detail. That’s why I said before it is the most difficult, the rest is

quite easy to cope)

I wish my MCQ paper for the next time is like ‘yes or no’-type for the answer. However, I know it is impossible…jangan mimpi la. Maybe one day later!

So now, my head’s burden is reduced a wee bit. Huhuhu…after a long period of time suffered from increased intra-cranial pressure, now I can enjoy a little moment before the next paper, but still have the pressure…huhuhu! For last few days, I think I used a lot of my glycogen storage in my liver and fat storage in my muscle only for this exam. Moreover, it is a winter time, so the external environment promote the breakdown of glycogen and fat for the metabolism and energy consumption during the active period in my brain…hahaha so scientific explanation (can you understand? ;p…especially for kak milah, bleh faham ke?...kuhek3)

I don’t know what my mom or my grandma will say about me if they see me now. I think I have lost 2 kg since I came back to Belfast. Am I depressed? Homesick? Eating disorder? Loss appetite? Huh…I don’t know. I suspect I got fat malabsorption because I eat a lot but I never gain weight more than 63kg. But do I have fat malabsorption?

Well, cortisol really pulls my weight down since I feel tired after doing rigorous activities. But the weird thing is I still feel tired after a few days of specific activities especially after playing badminton during the weekend. And I noticed this when I went to Malaysia during the summer. Feel very tired, very sleepy, lack of energy…anaemic? Nayy…I don’t think so! However it is still the time to think about the exam. :(

Again Alhamdulillah, thank God becos this paper will be added up with anatomy and microanatomy paper which is on Thursday. So, I still have the chance to boost my mark on Thursday. I hope I got the strength and bless to go for it…InsyaAllah.

The Last Part of Trilogy...Salahuddin Al-Ayubbi

2005-01-08T10:50:00.000Z

This part is more towards describing the spirit of Salahuddin...Once he was very ill and it was hard for him to get. The illness made him cannot sleep and still he was be able to make a preparation and made sure all his army are prepared for the battle...He was once said,'I will never ever drop my sword as the kuffar still messing the earth unless it's the time to death'. See how the spirit of a warrior. A warrior that gave a lot to Islam and his whole life was to Islam...I just couldn't see myself will be able to be at least as the same par of the army. The army of Salahuddin Al-Ayubbi or Sultan Muhamad Al-Fateh...As so, the last of the trilogy begins...

Perangai Salahuddin

Siapa yang rapat dengannya mengatakan ia adalah seorang Islam yang taat kepada Allah, sangat peka kepada keadilan, pemurah, lembut hati, sabar dan tekun. Bahauddin bin Shaddad, penasihat utama Salahuddin telah mencatatkan ia telah memberikan masa untuk rakyat dua kali seminggu, iaitu pada hari Isnin dan Selasa. Pada masa ini ia disertai oleh pembesar-pembesar negara, ulama dan kadi. Semua orang boleh berjumpa dengannya. Ia sendiri akan membacakan aduan yang diterimanya dan mengucapkan untuk dituliskan oleh juru tulis tindakan yang perlu diambil dan terus ditandatanganinya pada masa itu juga. Ia tidak pernah membenarkan orang meninggalkannya selagi ia belum menyempurnakan hajat orang itu. Dalam masa yang sama ia sentiasa bertasbih kepada Allah. Jika ada orang membuat aduan, ia akan mendengarkan dengan teliti dan kemudian memberikan keputusannya. Suatu hari seorang lelaki telah membuat aduan berkenaan Taqiuddin, anak saudaranya sendiri. Dengan segera ia memanggil anak saudaranya itu dan meminta penjelasan. Dalam ketika yang lain ada orang yang membuat tuduhan kepada Salahuddin sendiri. Yang memerlukan penyiasatan. Walaupun tuduhan orang itu didapati tidak berasas, ia telah menghadiahkan orang itu sehelai jubah dan beberapa pemberian yang lain. Ia adalah seorang yang mulia dan baik hati, lemah lembut, penyabar dan sangat benci kepada ketidakadilan. Ia sentiasa mengabaikan kesilapan-kesilapan pembantu-pembantu dan khadam-khadamnya. Jika mereka melakukan kesilapan yang memanaskan hatinya, ia tidak pernah menyebabkan kemarahannya menjatuhkan air muka mereka. Pada suatu ketika ia pernah meminta air minum, tetapi entah apa sebabnya air itu tidak diberikan kepadanya. Ia meminta sehingga lima kali lalu berkata, "Aku hampir mati kehausan". Ia kemudian meminum air yang dibawakan kepadanya tanpa menunjukkan kemarahan. Dalam ketika yang lain ia hendak mandi selepas mengalami sakit yang agak lama. Didapatinya air yang disediakan agak panas, lalu ia meminta air sejuk. Sebanyak dua kali khadamnya menyebabkan air sejuk terpercik kepadanya. Disebabkan ia belum benar-benar sihat, ia merasa kesejukan tetapi ia hanya berkata kepada khadamnya, "Cakap sajalah kalau kau tak suka kepadaku". Lalu khadam itu cepat-cepat minta maaf dan Salahuddin terus memaafkannya. Bahauddin juga telah mencatatkan beberapa peristiwa yang menunjukkan sifat pemurah dan baik hati Salahuddin. Kadang-kadang kawasan yang baru ditawannya pun diberikannya kepada pengikutnya. Satu ketika ia telah berjaya menawan bandar 'Amad. Lalu seorang perwira tentera, Qurrah Arslan, menyatakan keinginannya untuk memerintah bandar itu. Dengan senang hati ia memberikannya. Bahkan dalam beberapa ketika ia menjualkan hartanya semata-mata untuk membeli hadiah. Melihat betapa pemurahnya Salahuddin, bendaharinya selalu merahsiakan baki wang simpanan untuk digunakan semasa kecemasan. Jika ia tahu, ia akan menyedekahkan khazanah negara sehingga habis. Salahuddin pernah mengatakan ada orang baginya wang dan debu sama sahaja. "Aku tahu", kata Bahauddin, "Ia mengatakan dirinya". Salahuddin tidak pernah membiarkan tetamunya meninggalkannya tanpa hadiah atau sebarang bentuk pemberian tanda penghargaan, walaupun tamunya itu seorang kafir. Raja Saida pernah melawat Salahuddin dan ia menyambutnya dengan tangan terbuka, melayannya dengan hormat dan mengambil kesempatan menerangkan Islam. Bahkan Salahuddin sentiasa mengirimkan ais dan buah-buahan kepada Richard the Lion, musuh ketatnya, ketika Raja Inggeris itu sakit. Hatinya memang sangat lembut hingga ia sangat mudah terkesan apabila melihat orang dalam kesusahan dan kesedihan. Suatu hari seorang perempuan Kristian datang mengadu kehilangan bayinya. Perempuan itu menangis dan meraung di depan Salahuddin sambil menceritakan bayinya dicuri dari khemahnya. Perempuan itu seterusnya mengatakan ia telah dimaklumkan hanya Salahuddin sahaja yang boleh mendapatkan bayi itu kembali. Hatinya tersentuh mendengar cerita perempuan itu lalu ia pun turut menangis. Ia segera memerintahkan pegawai-pegawainya mencari bayi itu di pasar hamba-sahaya. Tidak lama kemudian bayi itu telah dapat dibawa kembali lalu dengan rasa gembira mendoakan kesejahteraan Salahuddin. Bahauddin juga mencatatkan Salahuddin sangat kasihan belas kepada anak-anak yatim. Bila ia terjumpa anak-anak yatim ia akan menguruskan supaya ada orang menjadi penjaga anak itu. Kadang-kadang ia sendiri yang akan menjaga dan membesarkan anak yatim yang ditemuinya. Ia juga sangat kasihan melihat orang tua atau yang kurang upaya dan akan memberikan penjagaan yang khas kepada mereka apabila ia bertemu dengan orang sedemikian.

Kesungguhan dan Semangat

Ketika mengepung bandar Acre, Bahauddin mencatatkan bahawa Salahuddin mengidap sakit kuat yang menyebabkan beliau sangat susah untuk bangun. Meskipun demikian, ia keluar menunggang kudanya untuk memeriksa angkatan tenteranya. Bahauddin bertanya kepadanya bagaimana ia boleh menahan sakitnya. Maka Salahuddin menjawab, "Penyakit akan peninggalanku apabila kamu menunggang kuda". Dalam ketika yang lain ia sebenarnya dalam keadaan yang lemah akibat sakit tetapi pergi memburu musuh sepanjang malam. "Apabila ia sakit", kata Bahauddin, "Aku dan doktor akan bersamanya sepanjang malam. Ia tidak dapat tidur akibat menahan sakit, tetapi apabila pagi menjelang, ia akan menunggang kuda untuk melawan musuh. Ia menghantar anak-anaknya ke medan perang sebelum memerintahkan orang lain berbuat demikian. Aku dan doktornya bersamanya sepanjang hari menunggang kuda sehinggalah musuh berundur apabila senja menjelang. Ia hanya akan kembali ke khemah selepas memberikan arahan untuk kawalan keselamatan pada waktu malam". Dalam kesungguhan, semangat dan ketahanan rasanya tiada siapa yang boleh menandingi Salahuddin. Kadang-kadang ia sendiri pergi ke kawasan perkhemahan tentera musuh bersama perisik-perisiknya sekali bahkan dua kali sehari. Ketika berperang ia sendiri akan pergi merempuh celah-celah tentera musuh yang sedang mara. Ia sentiasa mengadakan pemeriksaan ke atas setiap tenteranya dan memberikan arahan kepada panglima-panglima tenteranya. Bahauddin ada mencatatkan satu kisah yang menunjukkan betapa beraninya Salahuddin. Salahuddin diberitahu bahawa ia selalu mendengar bacaan hadis pada masa lapang bukannya ketika perang. Apabila mendengar perkara ini ia segera mengarahkan supaya hadis-hadis dibacakan kepadanya ketiak peperangan sedang berkecamuk dengan sengitnya. Salahuddin tidak pernah gentar dengan ramainya tentera Salib yang datang untuk menentangnya. Dalam beberapa ketika, tentera Salib berjumlah sehingga 600,000 orang, tetapi Salahuddin menghadapinya dengan tentera yang jauh lebih sedikit. Berkat pertolongan Allah ia menang, membunuh ramai musuh dan membawa ramai tawanan. Ketika mengepung Acre, pada satu petang lebih dari 70 kapal tentera musuh berserta senjata berat mendarat pada satu petang. Boleh dikatakan semua orang merasa gentar kecuali Salahuddin. Dalam satu peperangan yang sengit semasa kepungan ini, serangan mendadak besar-besaran dari musuh telah menyebabkan tentera Islam kelam kabut. Tentera musuh telah merempuh khemah-khemah tentera Islam bahkan telah sampai ke khemah Salahuddin dan mencabut benderanya. Tetapi Salahuddin bertahan dengan teguhnya dan berjaya mengatur tenteranya kembali sehingga ia berjaya membalikkan kekalahan menjadi kemenangan. Musuh telah kalah teruk dan berundur meninggalkan lebih kurang 7,000 mayat-mayat. Bahauddin ada mencatatkan betapa besarnya cita-cita Salahuddin. Suatu hari Salahuddin pernah berkata kepadanya, "Aku hendak beri tahu padamu apa yang ada dalam hatiku. Apabila Allah mentakdirkan seluruh tanah suci ini di bawah kekuasaanku, aku akan serahkan tanah-tanah kekuasaanku ini kepada anak-anakku, ku berikan arahan-arahanku yang terakhir lalu ku ucapkan selamat tinggal. Aku akan belayar untuk menaklukkan pulau-pulau dan tanah-tanah. Aku tak akan meletakkan senjata ku selagi masih ada orang-orang kafir di atas muka bumi atau jika ajalku sampai".

Salahuddin sebagai ulama

Salahuddin memiliki asas pengetahuan agama yang kukuh. Ia juga mengetahui setiap suku-suku kaum Arab dan adat-adat mereka. Bahkan ia mengetahui sifat-sifat kuda Arab walaupun ia sebenarnya orang Kurd. Ia sangat gemar mengumpulkan pengetahuan dan maklumat dari kawan-kawannya dan utusan-utusannya yang sentiasa berjalan dari satu penjuru ke satu penjuru negerinya. Di samping Qur'an ia juga banyak menghafal syair-syair Arab. Lane-Poole juga ada menuliskan bahawa Salahuddin berpengetahuan yang dalam dan gemar untuk mendalami lagi bidang-bidang akidah, ilmu hadis serta sanad-sanad dan perawi-perawinya, syariah dan usul figh dan juga tafsir Qur'an.Bilakah akan tiba masanya Allah s.w.t. akan mengutuskan seorang lagi Sallahudin Ayyubi yang akan menyelamatkan ummat.

Rujukan: Bahauddin bin Shaddad. 1234M,632H. Al-Nawadir-I-Sultania: Sirat Salahuddin (Bin Nawadir-I-Sultania). Mesir (diterbitkan 1317h): 31, 32-33, 7,155 Poole S. L. 1914. Saladin. New York: 72, 99

Salahuddin Al-Ayubbi...Part II

2005-01-08T00:44:00.000Z

Hummm...as promised, I present to you the second part of the translation of Saviors of Islamic Spirit by Abul Hassan Ali Nadwai about the great warrior of Islam, Salahuddin Al-Ayubbi. For this part, it shows the life of Salahuddin more towards his battle's life. How he was in the way to liberate Palestine and also about the story of 'Perang Salib' (forgot the name in English). Just name the enemies, King Richard, Leopold, Augustus etc, nobody at that time can defeat the great army of Salahuddin and his relatives' sides along the series of battles. As Allah promise for those who give his life, his heart, his wealth and everything he has, for the sake of Allah, for the way of fi sabilillah, then the promise is either you get the victory or die as if you will get the Jannah...

Therefore, let us pray for the victory of Islam and Mujahiddin fi Masjidil Aqsa wa fi Kashmir wa fi Chechen wa fi Fallujah...AMIN!

Menawan Baitul Muqaddis.

Kemenangan peperangan Hittin telah membuka jalan mudah kepada Salahuddin untuk menawan Baitul Muqaddis. Bahauddin telah mencatatkan bahawa Salahuddin sangat-sangat berhajat untuk menawan Baitul Muqaddis hinggakan bukit pun akan mengecut dari bebanan yang dibawa di dalam hatinya. Pada hari Jumaat, 27 Rejab, 583H, iaitu pada hari Isra' Mi'raj, Salahuddin telah memasuki banda suci tempat Rasulullah s.a.w. naik ke langit. Dalam catatan Bahauddin ia menyatakan inilah kemenangan atas kemenangan. Ramai orang yang terdiri dari ulama, pembesar-pembesar, peniaga dan orang-orang biasa datang meraikan gembira kemenangan ini. Kemudiannya ramai lagi orang datang dari pantai dan hampir semua ulama-ulama dari Mesir dan Syria datang untuk mengucapkan tahniah kepada Salahuddin. Boleh dikatakan hampir semua pembesar-pembesar datang. Laungan "Allahhu Akbar" dan "Tiada tuhan melainkan Allah" telah memenuhi langit. Selepas 90 tahun kini sembahyang Jumaat telah diadakan semula di Baitul Muqaddid. Salib yang terpampang di 'Dome of Rock' telah diturunkan. Betapa hebatnya peristiwa ini tidak dapat digambarkan. Hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu betapa hebatnya hari itu.

Salahuddin yang Penyayang

Sifat penyayang dan belas kasihan Salahuddin semasa peperangan ini sangat jauh berbeza daripada kekejaman musuh Kristiannya. Ahli sejarah Kristian pun mengakui hal ini. Lane-Poole mengesahkan bahawa kebaikan hati Salahuddin telah mencegahnya daripada membalas dendam. Ia telah menuliskan yang Salahuddin telah menunjukkan ketinggian akhlaknya ketika orang-orang Kristian menyerah kalah. Tenteranya sangat bertanggungjawab, menjaga peraturan di setiap jalan, mencegah segala bentuk kekerasan hinggakan tiada kedengaran orang-orang Kristian dipersalah-lakukan. Semua jalan keluar-masuk ke Baitul Muqaddis di tangannya dan seorang yang amanah telah dilantik di pintu Nabi Daud untuk menerima wang tebusan daripada orang-orang Kristian yang ditawan. Lane-Poole juga telah menuliskan bahawa Salahuddin telah mengatakan kepada pegawainya, "Adikku telah membuat infak, Paderi besar pun telah menderma. Sekarang giliranku pula". Lalu ia memerintahkan pegawainya mewartakan di jalan-jalan Jerusalem bahawa sesiapa yang tidak mampu membayar tebusan boleh dibebaskan. Maka berbondong-bondonglah orang keluar dari pintu St. Lazarus dari pagi hingga ke malam. Ini merupakan sedekah Salahuddin kepada orang miskin tanpa mengira bilangan mereka. Selanjutnya Lane-Poole menuliskan bagaimana pula tindak-tanduk tentera Kristian ketika menawan Baitul Muqaddis kali pertama pada tahun 1099. Telah tercatat dalam sejarah bahawa ketika Godfrey dan Tancred menunggang kuda di jalan-jalan Jerusalem jalan-jalan itu 'tersumbat' dengan mayat-mayat, orang-orang Islam yang tidak bersenjata diseksa, dibakar dan dipanah dari jarak dekat di atas bumbung dan menara rumah-rumah ibadah. Darah yang membasahi bumi yang mengalir dari pembunuhan orang-orang Islam secara beramai-ramai telah mencemarkan kesucian gereja di mana sebelumnya kasih sayang sentiasa diajarkan. Maka sangat bernasib baik orang-orang Kristian apabila mereka dilayan dengan baik oleh Salahuddin. Lane-Poole juga menuliskan, jika hanya penaklukan Jerusalem sahaja yang diketahui mengenai Salahuddin, maka ia sudah cukup membuktikan dialah seorang penakluk yang paling penyantun dan baik hati di zamannya bahkan mungkin di sepanjang zaman.

Perang Salib Ketiga

Perang Salib pertama ialah kejatuhan Palestin kepada orang-orang Kristian pada tahun 1099 (490H) manakala yang kedua telah dimenangi oleh Salahuddin dalam peperangan Hittin pada tahun 583H (1187M) di mana beberapa hari kemudian ia telah menawan Baitul Muqaddis tanpa perlawanan. Kekalahan tentera Kristian ini telah menggegarkan seluruh dunia Kristian. Maka bantuan dari Eropah telah dicurahkan ke bumi Palestin. Hampir semua raja dan panglima perang dari dunia Kristian seperti Fredrick Barbossa raja Jerman, Richard The Lion raja England, Philips Augustus raja Perancis, Leopold dari Austria, Duke of Burgundy dan Count of Flanders telah bersekutu menyerang Salahuddin yang hanya dibantu oleh beberapa pembesarnya dan saudara maranya serta tenteranya untuk mempertahankan kehormatan Islam. Berkat pertolongan Allah mereka tidak dapat dikalahkan oleh tentera bersekutu yang besar itu. Peperangan ini berlanjutan selama 5 tahun hingga menyebabkan kedua belah pihak menjadi lesu dan jemu. Akhirnya kedua belah pihak bersetuju untuk memuat perjanjian di Ramla pada tahun 588H. Perjanjian ini mengakui Salahuddin adalah penguasa Palestin seluruhnya kecuali bandar Acra diletakkan di bawah pemerintahan Kristian. Maka berakhirlah peperangan Salib ketiga. Lane-Poole telah mencatatkan perjanjian ini sebagai berakhirnya Perang Suci yang telah berlanjutan selama 5 tahun. Sebelum kemenangan besar Hittin pada bulan Julai, 1187M, tiada satu inci pun tanah Palestin di dalam tangan orang-orang Islam. Selepas Perjanjian Ramla pada bulan September, 1192M, keseluruhannya menjadi milik mereka kecuali satu jalur kecil dari Tyre ke Jaffa. Salahuddin tidak ada rasa malu apa pun dengan perjanjian ini walaupun sebahagian kecil tanah Palestin masih di tangan orang-orang Kristian. Atas seruan Pope, seluruh dunia Kristian telah mengangkat senjata. Raja England, Perancis, Sicily dan Austria serta Duke of Burgundy, Count of Flanders dan beratus-ratus lagi pembesar-pembesar telah bersekutu membantu Raja dan Putra Mahkota Palestin untuk mengembalikan kerajaan Jerusalem kepada pemerintahan Kristian. Walau bagaimana pun ada raja yang mati dan ada yang balik dan sebahagian pembesar-pembesar Kristian telah terkubur di Tanah Suci itu, tetapi Tanah Suci itu masih di dalam tangan Salahuddin. Selanjutnya Lane-Poole mencatatkan, seluruh kekuatan dunia Kristian yang telah ditumpukan dalam peperangan Salib ketiga tidak menggoyangkan kekuatan Salahuddin. Tenteranya mungkin telah jemu dengan peperangan yang menyusahkan itu tetapi mereka tidak pernah undur apabila diseru untuk menjualkan jiwa raga mereka di jalan Tuhan. Tenteranya yang berada jauh di lembah Tigris di Iraq mengeluh dengan tugas yang tidak henti-henti, tetapi ketaatan mereka yang tidak pernah berbelah bagi. Bahkan dalam peperangan Arsuf, tenteranya dari Mosil (sebuah tempat di Iraq) telah menunjukkan ketangkasan yang hebat. Dalam peperangan ini, Salahuddin memang boleh memberikan kepercayaan kepada tentera-tenteranya dari Mesir, Mesopotamia, Syria, Kurds, Turkmans, tanah Arab dan bahkan orang-orang Islam dari mana-mana sahaja. Walaupun mereka berlainan bangsa dan kaum tetapi Salahuddin telah dapat menyatukan mereka di atas jalan Tuhan daripada mula peperangan pada tahun 1187 hinggalah berakhirnya pada tahun 1192. Lane-Poole juga menuliskan dalam peperangan ini Salahuddin sentiasa syura. Ia mempunyai majlis syura yang membuat keputusan-keputusan ketenteraan. Kadang-kadang majlis ini membatalkan keputusan Salahuddin sendiri. Dalam majlis ini tiada siapa yang mempunyai suara lebih berat tiada siapa yang lebih mempengaruhi fikiran Salahuddin. Semuanya sama sahaja. Dalam majlis itu ada adiknya, anak-anaknya, anak saudaranya, sahabat-sahabat lamanya, pembesar-pembesar tentera, kadi, bendahari dan setiausaha. Semuanya mempunyai sumbangan yang sama banyak dalam membuat keputusan. Pendeknya semuanya menyumbang dalam kepakaran masing-masing. Walau apa pun perbincangan dan perdebatan dalam majlis itu, mereka memberikan ketaatan mereka kepada Salahuddin.

Wafatnya Salahuddin

Pada hari Rabu, 27 Safar, 589H, pulanglah Salahuddin ke rahmatullah selepas berhempas pulas mengembalikan tanah air Islam pada usia 57 tahun. Bahauddin bin Shaddad, penasihat utama Salahuddin telah menulis mengenai hari-hari terakhir Salahuddin. Pada malam 27 Safar, 12 hari selepas ia jatuh sakit, ia telah menjadi sangat lemah. Syeikh Abu Ja'afar seorang yang wara' telah diminta menemani Salahuddin di Istana supaya jika ia nazak, bacaan Qur'an dan syahadah boleh diperdengarkan kepadanya. Memang pada malam itu telah nampak tanda-tanda berakhirnya hayat Salahuddin. Syeikh Abu Jaafar telah duduk di tepi katilnya semenjak 3 hari yang lepas membacakan Qur'an. Dalam masa ini Salahuddin selalu pengsan dan sedar sebentar. Apabila Syeikh Au Jaafar membacakan ayat, "Dialah Allah, tiada tuhan melainkan Dia, Yang mengetahui yang ghaib dan yang nyata" (Al-Hasyr: 22), Salahuddin membuka matanya sambil senyum, mukanya berseri dan dengan nada yang gembira ia berkata, "Memang benar". Selepas ia mengucapkan kata-kata itu rohnya pun kembali ke rahmatullah. Masa ini ialah sebelum subuh, 27 Safar. Seterusnya Bahauddin menceritakan Salahuddin tidak meninggalkan harta kecuali satu dinar dan 47 dirham ketika ia wafat. Tiada rumah-rumah, barang-barang, tanah, kebun dan harta-harta lain yang ditinggalkannya. Bahkan harta yang ditinggalkannya tidak cukup untuk kos pengebumiannya. Keluarganya terpaksa meminjam wang untuk menanggung kos pengebumian ini. Bahkan kain kafan pun diberikan oleh seorang menterinya.

Salahuddin yang Wara'

Bahauddin bin Shaddad, penasihat utama Salahuddin telah mencatatkan berkenaan kewarakan Salahuddin. Satu hari ia berkata bahawa ia telah lama tidak pergi sembahyang berjemaah. Ia memang suka sembahyang berjemaah, bahkan ketika sakitnya ia akan memaksa dirinya berdiri di belakang imam. Disebabkan sembahyang adalah ibadah utama yang diasaskan oleh Rasulullah s.a.w., ia sentiasa mengerjakan sembahyang sunat malam. Jika disebabkan hal tertentu ia tidak dapat sembahyang mala, ia akan menunaikannya ketika hampir subuh. Bahauddin melihatnya sentiasa sembahyang di belakang imam ketika sakitnya, kecuali tiga terakhir di mana ia telah tersangat lemah dan selalu pengsan. Tetapi ia tidak pernah tinggal sembahyang fardu. Ia tidak pernah membayar zakat kerana ia tidak mempunyai harta yang cukup nisab. Ia sangat murah hati dan akan menyedekahkan apa yang ada padanya kepada fakir miskin dan kepada yang memerlukan hinggakan ketika wafatnya ia hanya memiliki 47 dirham wang perak dan satu dinar wang emas. Ia tidak meninggalkan harta. Bahauddin juga mencatatkan bahawa Salahuddin tidak pernah meninggalkan puasa Ramadhan kecuali hanya sekali apabila dinasihatkan oleh Kadi Fadhil. Ketika sakitnya pun ia berpuasa sehinggalah doktor menasihatkannya dengan keras supaya berbuka. Lalu ia berbuka dengan hati yang berat sambil berkata, "Aku tak tahu bila ajal akan menemuiku". Maka segera ia membayar fidyah. Dalam catatan Bahauddin juga menunjukkan Salahuddin teringin sangat menunaikan haji ke Mekah tetapi ia tidak pernah berkesempatan. Pada tahun kewafatannya, keinginannya menunaikan haji telah menjadi-jadi tetapi ditakdirkan. Ia sangat gemar mendengar bacaan Qur'an. Dalam medan peperangan ia acap kali duduk mendengar bacaan Qur'an para pengawal yang dilawatnya sehingga 3 atau 4 juzu' semalam. Ia mendengar dengan sepenuh hati dan perhatian sehingga air matanya membasahi dagunya. Ia juga gemar mendengar bacaan hadis Rasulullah s.a.w.. Ia akan memerintahkan orang-orang yang bersamanya duduk apabila hadis dibacakan. Apabila ulama hadis datang ke bandar, ia akan pergi mendengar kuliahnya. Kadang-kadang ia sendiri membacakan hadis dengan mata yang berlinang. Dalam peperangan kadang-kadang ia berhenti di antara musuh-musuh yang datang untuk mendengarkan hadis-hadis dibacakan kepadanya. Ia juga sangat berpegang teguh kepada rukun iman hinggakan ia telah mengarahkan anaknya al-Malik al-Zahir membunuh Suhrawady yang membawa ajaran sesat. Salahuddin sangat yakin dan percaya kepada pertolongan Allah. Ia biasa meletakkan segala harapannya kepada Allah terutama ketika dalam kesusahan. Pada satu ketika ia berada di Jerusalem yang pada masa itu seolah-olah tidak dapat bertahan lagi daripada kepungan tentera bersekutu Kristian. Walaupun keadaan sangat terdesak ia enggan untuk meninggalkan kota suci itu. Malam itu adalah malam Jumaat musim sejuk. Bahaauddin mencatatkan, "Hanya aku dan Salahuddin sahaja pada masa itu. Ia menghabiskan masa malam itu dengan bersembahyang dan munajat. Pada tengah malam saya minta supaya ia berehat tetapi jawanya, "Ku fikir kau mengantuk. Pergilah tidur sejenak". Bila hampir subuh aku pun bangun dan pergi mendapatkannya. Aku dapati ia sedang membasuh tangannya. "Aku tidak tidur semalam" katanya. Selepas sembahyang subuh aku berkata kepadanya, "Kau kena munajat kepada Allah memohon pertolongan-Nya". Lalu ia bertanya, "Apa yang perlu ku lakukan?"Aku menjawab, "Hari ini hari Jumaat. Engkau mandilah sebelum pergi ke masjid Aqsa. Keluarkanlah infaq dengan senyap-senyap. Apabila kau tiba di masjid, sembahyanglah dua rakaat selepas azan di tempat Rasulullah s.a.w pernah sembahyang sebelum mi'raj dahulu. Aku pernah membaca hadis doa yang dibuat di tempat itu adalah mustajab. Oleh itu kau bermunajadlah kepada Allah dengan ucapan "Ya Tuhanku, aku telah kehabisan segala bekalanku. Kini aku mohon pertolongan-Mu. Aku menyerahkan diriku kepada-Mu. Aku yakin hanya Engkau sahaja yang boleh menolongku dalam keadaan yang genting ini" Aku mengatakan kepadanya, "Aku sangat berharap Allah akan mengabulkan doamu". Lalu Salahuddin melakukan apa yang ku usulkan. Aku berada di sebelahnya ketika dahinya mencecah bumi sambil menangis hingga air matanya mambasahi janggutnya dan menitik ke tempat sembahyang. Aku tidak tahu apa yang didoakannya tetapi aku melihat tanda-tanda doanya dikabulkan sebelum hari itu berakhir. Perbalahan berlaku di antara musuh-musuh yang menatijahkan berita baik bagi kami beberapa hari kemudian. Akhirnya mereka membuka khemah-khemah mereka dan berangkat ke Ramla pada hari Isnin pagi"

The Warrior (Part I)

2005-01-07T01:51:00.000Z

Salahuddin Al-Ayubbi. One of my favourite story during my primary school told by my teacher. Reading about his history, the way he led the Muslim army, the way he liberated Palestine and Syria make me feel proud about Islam. I always feel like 'bersemangat' when reading any article about him...feel like I want to be like him...leading a troop to conquer US or Rom or Europe maybe (huh...kuat gak aku berangan). One of the most thing that I recognise and have been told before that, Kurds are very good race. They put their wala' (taat setia) to the Utmaniyyah empire although they know the empire become weaker and weaker. Most of the empire of Utmaniyyah was liberated by Kurds. That's why after 1924, when the empire fell apart, the empire has been divided ridiculously, as they want to divided all the Kurds into many country so their wala' is not to the one leaders. So, let us begin with the first part of the Salahuddin story in Malay...

Taken from somewhere...can't remember

Salahuddin dibesarkan sama seperti anak-anak orang Kurd biasa (Poole, 1914). Pendidikannya juga seperti orang lain, belajar ilmu-ilmu sains di samping seni peperangan dan mempertahankan diri. Tiada sesiapapun yang menjangka sebelum ia menguasai Mesir dan menentang tentera Salib bahawa anak Kurd ini suatu hari nanti akan merampas kembali Palestin dan menjadi pembela akidah Islamiah yang hebat. Dan tiada siapa yang menyangka pencapaiannya demikian hebat sehingga menjadi contoh dan perangsang memerangi kekufuran sehingga ke hari ini.Stanley Lane Poole (1914) seorang penulis Barat menyifatkan Salahuddin sebagai anak seorang gabenor yang memiliki kelebihan daripada orang lain tetapi tidak menunjukkan sebarang tanda-tanda ia akan menjadi orang hebat pada masa depan. Akan tetapi ia menunjukkan akhlak yang mulia. Walau bagaimana pun Allah telah mentakdirkannya untuk menjadi pemimpin besar pada zamannya dan Allah telah menyediakan dan memudahkan jalan-jalannya untuk bakal pemimpin agung itu. Ketika ia menjadi tentera Al-Malik Nuruddin, sultan Aleppo, ia diperintahkan untuk mara ke Mesir. Pada masa itu Mesir diperintah oleh sebuah kerajaan Syi'ah yang tidak bernaung di bawah khalifah. Bahauddin bin Shaddad, penasihat utama Salahuddin telah menulis bahawa Salahuddin sangat berat dan memaksa diri untuk pergi ke Mesir bagaikan orang yang hendak di bawa ke tempat pembunuhan (Bahauddin, 1234). Tetapi itulah sebenarnya apa yang dimaksudkan dengan firman Allah, "Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu" (Al-Baqarah:216)

Pertukaran Hidup Salahuddin

Apabila Salahuddin menguasai Mesir, ia tiba-tiba berubah. Ia yakin bahawa Allah telah mempertanggungjawabkan kepadanya satu tugas yang amat berat yang tak mungkin dapat dilaksanakan jika ia tidak bersungguh-sungguh. Bahauddin telah menuliskan dalam catatannya bahawa Salahuddin sebaik-baik sahaja ia menjadi pemerintah Mesir, dunia dan kesenangannya telah lenyap dari pandangan matanya. Dengan hati yang rendah dan syukur kepada Allah ia telah menolak godaan-godaan dunia dan segala kesenangannya (Bahauddin,1234). Bahkan Stanley Lane Poole(1914) telah menuliskan bahawa Salahuddin mengubah cara hidupnya kepada yang lebih keras. Ia bertambah wara' dan menjalani hidup yang lebih berdisiplin dan sederhana. Ia mengetepikan corak hidup senang dan memilih corak hidup "Spartan" yang menjadi contoh kepada tenteranya. Ia menumpukan seluruh tenaganya untuk satu tujuan iaitu untuk membina kekuasaan Islam yang cukup kuat untuk menghalau orang kafir dari tanah air Islam. Salahuddin pernah berkata, "Ketika Allah menganugerahkan aku bumi Mesir, aku yakin Dia juga bermaksud Palestin untukku. Ini menyebabkan ia menjuarai perjuangan Islam. Sehubungan dengan ia telah menyerahkan dirinya untuk jalan jihad. Semangat Jihadnya Fikiran Salahuddin sentiasa tertumpu kepada jihad di jalan Allah. Bahauddin telah mencatatkan bahawa semangat Salahuddin yang berkobar-kobar untuk berjihad menentang tentera Salib telah menyebabkan jihad menjadi tajuk perbincangan yang paling digemarinya. Ia sentiasa meluahkan seluruh tenaganya untuk memperkuat pasukan tenteranya, mencari mujahid-mujahid dan senjata untuk tujuan berjihad. Jika ada sesiapa yang bercakap kepadanya berkenaan jihad ia akan memberikan sepenuh perhatian. Sehubungan dengan ini ia lebih banyak di dalam khemah perang daripada duduk di istana bersama sanak keluarga. Siapa sahaja yang menggalakkannya berjihad akan mendapat kepercayaannya.Siapa sahaja yang memerhatikannya akan dapat melihat apabila ia telah memulakan jihat melawan tentera salib ia akan menumpukan seluruh perhatiannya kepada persiapan perang dan menaikkan semangat tenteranya. Dalam medan peperangan ia bagaikan seorang ibu yang garang kehilangan anak tunggal akibat dibunuh oleh tangan jahat. Ia akan bergerak dari satu hujung medan peperangan ke hujung yang lain untuk mengingatkan tenteranya supaya benar-benar berjihad di jalan Allah semata-mata. Ia juga akan pergi ke seluruh pelosok tanah air dengan mata yang berlinang mengajak manusia supaya bangkit membela Islam. Ketika ia mengepung Acre ia hanya minum, itu pun selepas dipaksa oleh doktor peribadinya tanpa makan. Doktor itu berkata bahawa Salahuddin hanya makan beberapa suap makanan semenjak hari Jumaat hingga Isnin kerana ia tidak mahu perhatiannya kepada peperangan terganggu. (Bahauddin, 1234)

Peperangan Hittin

Satu siri peperangan yang sengit telah berlaku antara tentera Salahuddin dengan tentera Salib di kawasan Tiberias di kaki bukit Hittin. Akhirnya pada 24 Rabiul-Akhir, 583 H, tentera Salib telah kalah teruk. Dalam peperangan ini Raja Kristian yang memerintah Palestin telah dapat di tawan berserta adiknya Reginald dari Chatillon. Pembesar-pembesar lain yang dapat ditawan ialah Joscelin dari Courtenay, Humphrey dari Toron dan beberapa orang ternama yang lain. Ramai juga tentera-tentera Salib berpangkat tinggi telah tertawan. Stanley Lane-Poole menceritakan bahawa dapat dilihat seorang tentera Islam telah membawa 30 orang tentera Kristian yang ditawannya sendiri diikat dengan tali khemah. Mayat-mayat tentera Kristian bertimbun-timbun seperti batu di atas batu di antara salib-salib yang patah, potongan tangan dan kaki dan kepala-kepala manusia berguling seperti buah tembikai. Dianggarkan 30,000 tentera Kristian telah mati dalam peperangan ini. Setahun selepas peperangan, timbunan tulang dapat dilihat memutih dari jauh.

Kecintaan Salahuddin kepada Islam

Peperangan Hittin telah menyerlahkan kecintaan Salahuddin kepada Islam. Stanley Lane-Poole menulis bahawa Salahuddin berkhemah di medan peperangan semasa peperangan Hittin. Pada satu ketika setelah khemahnya didirikan diperintahkannya tawanan perang dibawa ke hadapannya. Maka dibawalah Raja Palestin dan Reginald dari Chatillon masuk ke khemahnya. Dipersilakan sang Raja duduk di dekatnya. Kemudian ia bangun pergi ke hadapan Reginald lalu berkata, "Dua kali aku telah bersumpah untuk membunuhnya. Pertama ketika ia bersumpah akan melanggar dua kota suci dan kedua ketika ia menyerang jemaah haji. Ketahuilah aku akan menuntut bela Muhammad atasnya". Lalu ia menghunuskan pedangnya dan memenggal kepala Reginald. Mayatnya kemudian dibawa keluar oleh pengawal dari khemah. Raja Palestin apabila melihat adiknya dipancung, ia menggeletar kerana menyangka gilirannya akan tiba. Tetapi Salahuddin menjamin tidak akan mengapa-apakannya sambil berkata, "Bukanlah kelaziman seorang raja membunuh raja yang lain, tetapi orang itu telah melanggar segala batas-batas, jadi terjadilah apa yang telah terjadi". Tindakan Salahuddin adalah disebabkan kebiadaban Reginald kepada Islam dan Nabi Muhammad. Bahauddin bin Shaddad, penasihat kepercayaan Salahuddin mencatatkan bila jemaah haji dari Palestin diserang dicederakan tanpa belas kasihan oleh Reginald, di antara tawanannya merayu supaya mereka dikasihani. Tetapi Reginald dengan angkuhnya mengatakan, "Mintalah kepada nabi kamu , Muhammad, untuk menyelamatkan kamu". Apabila ia mendapat berita ini ia telah berjanji akan membunuh Reginald dengan tangannya sendiri apabila ia dapat menangkapnya.

to be continued...

Dua' of Sheikh al-Mohaisany

2005-01-06T07:01:00.000Z

He recited this dua’ in the month of Ramadhan during the solah tarawikh in front of the Ka’abah. I was once have the video website before but the website cannot be access anymore, don’t know why. I can’t remember at what year he recited this dua’ (either 2001 or 2002…but my heart believes it was 2001) but anyway, he was straight away handcuffed after reciting this dua’…If in the country of our Holy Land has this kind of stuffs, where dua’ has been seen as a threat not a Muslims’ weapon anymore, what else could we say? When Palestinians have nothing to fight with Jews, using stones as main weapon, we are saying they are terrorist? When, Jews killing our brothers and sisters, and Russian also doing the same thing, when they fight back with ‘Jihad Bomber’ then you say it is not an Islamic way (by the time Dr. Yusuf Al-Qaradawi giving his fatwa on suicide bomber as a Syahid Bomber, who are you to say this Syahid Bomber is not an Islamic way).

I know some of you will say, ‘argghhhh…we have enough this kind of thing. Everyday we get mails about Palestine, Fallujah, and those related materials’. I want to ask you some questions, how much time we spend for prayers? How is the ratio we spend reading about Islam compare to reading entertainment materials and studies? If you say you want to get happy, just think a little bit. Do you have the right to feel happy upon what have happened to our brothers and sisters? If you think you ‘telah disumbat dengan banyaknya perkara-perkara sebegini’, so what have you done? Did you pray for them? Did you feed them? Did you go to support them or against them?

By the time you have been fed with all information, facts and stories…but you still have your money goes to Tesco, Sainsbury, KFC, McDonald, Coca-Cola, Mark & Spencer..bla bla bla…

Yes, you have read enough and dah tepu ngan sume berita pasal Palestine, Iraq, Kashmir ngan Chehnya but have you feel the relationship of what those Muslims did with what have you done? Every pound and ringgit you pay is the bullet to dash into their body, and you still say ‘I am bored of this bulky of mails’. Remember, while everyone is actively helping the tsunami victims, we have forgotten about our brothers in the Land of Al-Quds!

Here I show you the translation of his dua’ for those who can’t speak or understand Arabic. And for those who can speak and understand Arabic, I’m sure it will really grab your heart…well it supposes to touch your heart. You have the advantage, it is either you want to commit with it or you leave it, but Allah always with those who are patient.

http://www.islamic.pwp.blueyonder.co.uk/Audio/makka_dua.mp3

Translation:

[Time 0:00] Oh Allah, to whom belongs All Glory and Grandeur, Oh Allah The Omni-Potentent, The Supreme, The Greatest, The Highest We ask you of Your Glory and Power, And victory for the Mujahideen in your cause, Oh Allah remain beside them, and with them, Give them triumph; strenghthen them. Oh Allah unite their vision, Focus the aim of their weaponry, And consolidate their word.

[0:33] And O Allah, fix their hearts, O Allah handle, take care of their enemies, O Allah dissipate their congregation, And shatter their integrity, And weaken their strengths, And throw the fear in their hearts, O Allah, our fates are in your hands, And our affairs all return to You, And our conditions are not obscured from Your knowledge, To You do we raise our misery, And our sorrow, And our complaint, To You, and You alone, do we complain the injustice of the oppressors, And the cruelty of the "faajereen" (literaly: perpetrators of debauchery), And the wrath of the betraying criminals,

[1:30] To You, O Allah, do we complain the injustice of the spiteful Christians, O Allah, the night (the dark reign) of the oppressors has indeed lengthened, (Again) O Allah, the night of the oppressors has indeed lengthened, (And Again,) ... O Allah, the night of the oppressors has indeed lengthened, (Again) O Allah, the night of the oppressors has indeed lengthened The animosity of the atheists has extended deep

[2:00] And ... the heads of the criminals Oh Allah, (pause) Oh Allah, Send upon them a hand from the truth ... To raise with it our humiliation, And to return to us our dignity, And to destroy our enemy with it, Oh Allah, (pause), Oh Allah, take care of the sources of injustice and oppression, (Again) Oh Allah, take care of the sources of injustice and oppression, Oh Allah, direct your forces against America, The center of Kufr and Fasaad (Again) Oh Allah, direct your forces against America, (Again) The center of Kufr and Fasaad Oh Allah, of them our are All-Aware, They spread fasaad in Your lands,

[3:02] And they killed Your slaves, And they insulted Your religion (Again) Oh Allah, of them our are All-Aware, And over them All-Powerful, Oh Allah, direct your forces against them, (Again) Oh Allah, direct your forces against them, O Allah send upon them the Storms of 'Aad, And the Cry of the Thamoud, And the Typhoon of the people of Noah, O Allah send upon them that which descends from the skies, And of that which exudes from the lands, O Allah disintegrate their country, O Allah make them into divided countries and scattered parties, O Allah, Ever-Living and Omni-Potent, Make contain them within a fist's grip of Your slaves (i.e. under their control), (Again) Make contain them within a fist's grip of Your slaves, O Allah, make hurricanes a constant for them,

[4:11] (Again) O Allah, make hurricanes a constant for them, (30 sec. pause...)

[4:40] O Allah release our captured brothers, O Allah release them, O Allah, strengthen them, O Allah make them steady on their faith, O Allah make possible a means for them, O Allah handle those who torture them,

[5:01] (Again) O Allah handle those who torture them, O Allah handle those who torture them O Allah eradicate them with Your power and Omni-Potence, O Allah, make their plots against us a cause for their destruction, And their slyness, slyness against them, O Lord of the worlds, O Ever-Living, O Omni-Potent, O Most-Mighty and Most-Gracious, Hearer of all prayer, Ever so close, accepting to all prayers, We all pray to You, full aware of Your promise, And of Your acceptance, For You have said, and Your speech is the truth: "Pray to Me, for I accept your prayers", O Allah accept our prayers for us, (Again) O Allah accept our prayers for us, O Allah, Everlasting, All-Powerful, The Omni-Potent over all that is in the heavens and the earth,

[6:00] We ask you to save Al-Aqsa from the cruelty of the Jews, (Again) O Allah save Al-Aqsa from the cruelty of the Jews, O Allah free Al-Aqsa from every black-hearted Kafir, O Allah lay our eyes rest on a liberated Aqsa, and on the defeat of the spiteful Jews, O Most-Mighty and Most-Gracious, All creatures are unto You humiliated, meek, ... O Allah, our creator from a single soul, O Allah, Highest in status O Allah, Greatest in Strength We ask You glory for Islam and Muslims, O Allah, Ever-Living, Ever so Powerful, O Allah guard the hard working scholars, (Again) O Allah guard the hard working scholars,

[7:01] And make steadfast those sincere in inviting to Your path, And raise the positions of those who order righteousness, and who forbid evil, And bestow the same mercy upon those Muslims who enjoin them, O Allah, Ever-Living, Ever so Powerful, O Most-Mighty and Most-Gracious, O Allah, he who devoted himself to hurt them, Talking to defame their honor, And tracking their refuge, And for whom You have willed no guidance, O Allah, make misery his destiny, O Allah, make misery his destiny, And disaster in his path, O Allah, convert his health to disease, And his strength into sickness, And his wealth, into poverty, And his power into weakness [7:57]
http://www.islamic.pwp.blueyonder.co.uk/Audio/makka_dua.mp3

Pak Pandir and Mosquito...and Kelambu

2005-01-04T17:24:00.000Z

Hahahaha...I myself can't control my laugh when reading this joke. Remind me to the Afdlin Shauki once in Gila-Gila Pengantin Remaja and Ah-Ha...huhuhu

Huhuhuhu...so long I haven' t laugh like this. Well, what could I expect from this pressuring period of exam...stay up to study...take extra caffeine (never do this before)...very tense situation now...my head can burst without jokes. And jokes release the so called intra-cranial pressure in my head...hahaha

Anyway, laugh sometimes can be the best medicine. Well, I laughed a lot last night becos of this joke...hahahaha..still laughing.

Nak dijadikan cerita, pada zaman dahulu, ada seorang lelaki bernama Pak Pandir yang tinggal dihulu sungai di sebuah kampung. Nak dijadikan kisah lagi, tinggallah seorang polis berjiran dengannya. pada petang yang hening itu, berjalanlah Pak Pandir ke kedai untuk membeli kelambu kerana rumahnya terlalu banyak nyamuk. Sekembalinya dari kedai, dipasangnyalah kelambu itu pada katil bagi melindungi dirinya dari nyamuk.Pada malam itu, datanglah polis si jiran tersebut ke rumah Pak Pandir untuk berborak-borak. Dicari-carinya Pak Pandir tetapi tidak berjumpa. Akhirnya keluarlah Pak Pandir dari bawah katil. Terkejut si polis kerana Pak Pandir tidur kat bawah katil sedangkan di katilnya ada kelambu. Bertanyalah si polis,

Polis: Awatnya tidoq bawah katil?
Pak Pandir: Saja....nak tipu nyamuk.

Read It...Take It...Think About It

2005-01-04T02:08:00.000Z

I've came across with an article...quite attracting, remind me when I was a kid, always watching the miracles of nature. For me, it is weird...watching something that I haven't watch before is liking me unlocking the magic of the nature. How spiders make the spiderweb? How caterpillars become butterfly? Even watching hatching eggs also make me feel...wow, that's is awesome!

Anyway, I let you guys read the article...and take what you think you can make the most from it.

By SejadahKu,

Seseorang menemukan kepompong seekor kupu-kupu.Suatu hari lubang kecil muncul.Dia duduk mengamati dalam beberapa jam calon kupu-kupu itu ketika dia berjuang dengan memaksa dirinya melewati lubang kecil itu.Kemudian kupu-kupu itu berhenti membuat kemajuan.Kelihatannya dia telah berusaha semampunya dan dia tidak bisa lebih jauh lagi. Akhirnya orang tersebut memutuskan untuk membantunya. Dia mengambil sebuah gunting dan memotong sisa kekangan dari kepompong itu.Kupu-kupu tersebut keluar dengan mudahnya. Namun, dia mempunyai tubuh gembung dan kecil, sayap-sayap mengkerut.Orang tersebut terus mengamatinya karena dia berharap bahwa, pada suatu saat, sayap-sayap itu akan mekar dan melebar sehingga mampu menopang tubuhnya, yang mungkin akan berkembang seiring dengan berjalannya waktu.Semuanya tak pernah terjadi. Kenyataannya, kupu-kupu itu menghabiskan sisa hidupnya merangkak di sekitarnya dengan tubuh gembung dan sayap-sayap mengkerut. Dia tidak pernah bisa terbang. Yang tidak dimengerti dari kebaikan dan ketergesaan orang tersebut adalah bahwa kepompong yang menghambat dan. perjuangan yang dibutuhkan kupu-kupu untuk melewati lubang kecil adalah jalan Tuhan untuk memaksa cairan dari tubuh kupu-kupu itu ke dalam sayap-sayapnya sedemikian sehingga dia akan siap terbang begitu dia memperoleh kebebasan dari kepompong tersebut.Kadang-kadang perjuangan adalah suatu yang kita perlukan dalam hidup kita. jika Tuhan membiarkan kita hidup tanpa hambatan perjuangan, itu mungkin justru akan melumpuhkan kita. Kita mungkin tidak sekuat yang semestinya yang dibutuhkan untuk menopang cita-cita dan harapan yang kita mintakan. Kita mungkin tidak akan pernah dapat "Terbang" Sesungguhnya Tuhan itu Maha Pengasih dan maha Penyayang. Kita memohon kekuatan...Dan Tuhan memberi kita kesulitan-kesulitan untuk membuat kita tegar.Kita memohon kebijakan...Dan Tuhan memberi kita berbagai persoalan hidup untuk diselesaikan agar kita bertambah bijaksana.Kita memohon kemakmuran...Dan Tuhan memberi kita Otak dan Tenaga untuk dipergunakan sepenuhnya dalam mencapai kemakmuran. Kita memohon Keteguhan Hati...Dan Tuhan memberi Bencana dan Bahaya untuk diatasi. Kita memohon Cinta...Dan Tuhan memberi kita orang-orang bermasalah untuk diselamatkan dan dicintai. Kita Memohon kemurahan / kebaikan hati...Dan Tuhan memberi kita kesempatan-kesempatan yang silih berganti. Begitulah cara Tuhan membimbing Kita...Apakah jika saya tidak memperoleh yang saya inginkan, berarti bahwa saya tidak mendapatkan segala yang saya butuhkan? Kadang Tuhan tidak memberikan yang kita minta, tapi dengan pasti Tuhan memberikan yang terbaik untuk kita, kebanyakan kita tidak mengerti / mengenal, bahkan tidak mau menerima rencana Tuhan, padahal justru itulah yang terbaik untuk kita.Tetaplah berjuang...berusaha...dan berserah diri...Jika itu yang terbaik maka pasti Tuhan akan memberikannya untuk kita....

Remind Me When...

2005-01-03T01:57:00.000Z

I feel quite secure with my friends around...they remind me for anything ;)

I like to write something about what I feel although I didn’t really have a point. Hope they will benefit somebody, perhaps. Well, living far away from family makes me feel I have no tarbiyyah and that really worry me. Give advices to others (I think you know who you are), make jokes to cheer someone up and trying to be good! However, although I try to reap other others’ heart, I forgot to shine up my own heart. The heart that needs light to reach Allah’s love, the pleasure of Allah. And to fulfil Radhiyyah Mardhiyyah (Redha dan Diredhai).

I don’t know what is all about me. And for me, I must ‘water’ it with remembrance of Allah…zikrullah. Again, I leave this entry with something (whatsoever you want to call it, I don’t care…I Don’t Careism) from my friend…

Diriku,
Dalam rancak kau menyiram taman hati insan lain,
Kau terlupa membaja taman hatimu sendiri,
Agar ia sentiasa segar dalam hubungan dengan Allah,
Tersentuh dengan daulatNya,
Merasa terpikul amanah ad-deen ini...
Bukan kerana kau berjamaah,
Namun kerana engkau dibawah perintahNya.

Diriku, Seringkah kau mencari jalan,
Agar hatimu sentiasa lembut halus sentuhannya,
Agar sentiasa sedar akan keagunganNya,
Insafi kekerdilan,kelemahan,kealpaan dan kesilapan dirimu....?
Ketahuilah diriku,
Hatimu itu keras,
khusyu'mu kurang,
Syukur dan redhamu tidak banyak kau hadiahkan padaNya,
Terlalu banyak kurang dan salahmu...

Diriku, Tunaikanlah solatmu dalam khusyu'dan tenang, Muhasabahlah dirimu kala sunyi,
Selamilah kalam-kalam Al-Quran yang kau perjuangkan, Padanya ada bekalan,
Untuk kau terus menongkah bahtera perjuangan ini...

Diriku, Pada nawafil dan amalan sunat,
Ada jalan yang hampir untukmu berkasih sayang dengan Tuhanmu,
Pada Qiamullail di keheningan malam,
Bersama bisikan doa dan munajatmu, Diiring esak airmata keinsafan dan keihklasanmu,
Kau akan temui kemanisan taqarrub dibawah duli kebesaranNya...
Disitu ada bekalnya...
Lazimilah awal harimu dengan ma'thurat,
Pasti kau akan mengenali siapa dirimu sebagai daie.

Diriku,
Pada tawadhu',pada ukhuwahfillah,pada infaq fi sabilillah,
Pada uzlah muhasabah diri,pada zikir dan selawat,
Ada ketenangan dan kekuatanmu.

Diriku,
Ketahuilah hanya hati yang hidup sahaja,
Yang boleh menberikan nafas kepada hati yang mati…
Hati yang turut sama mati tidak mungkin menyembuhkan,
Hati yang sakit apatah lagi menghidupkan hati yang mati...

Diriku, Amanahlah kau dihadapan manusia,
Kerana kedaulatan Tuhanmu... Namun rasailah kekerdilan dirimu,
Dihadapan Qudrat dan IradatNya,
PASAKKAN KEYAKINAN UNTUK SATU PERUBAHAN! Pandangan mata selalu menipu...
Pandangan akal selalu tersalah...
Pandangan nafsu selalu melulu...
Pandangan hati itu yang hakiki... Kalau HATI ITU BERSIH..."

"HATI tempat jatuhnya pandangan ALLAH...
Jasad lahir tumpuan manusia...
Utamakanlah pandangan ALLAH...
Daripada pandangan manusia..."

Indifinite Talking...

2005-01-02T05:27:00.000Z

"*~ We Haven’t ‘Taste’ The Sun but We Feel Its Light, Sometimes Hot Sometimes Warm…Then You Consider The Sun is Very Hot…and the same goes to Jahannam? You Just Hear It but Never See It but You BELIEVE nothing hot compare to it!~*^"

How you feel if in the yaumul hisab you will enter jahannam becos of other people? You will enter jahannam becos you didn’t tell people what you suppose to tell? Or maybe people will account on you becos you didn’t show them what were in your mind? A man can enter the jahannam from sins by 6 women!

Honestly, I am on the verge of vulnerable situation to make sins in the present day and everyday, shortly, really vulnerable to make sins. Of course, I am out of my parents’ control, living in a society that believes too much in morality (which changing time by time and perception) and in the world of ignorance (refer to some peers)…or in the other words, kau kau aku aku, ko wat hal ko, aku wat hal aku! A syndrome which some of us will called ‘Aku Tak Pedulisme’ or ‘I Don’t Careism’!

Students like us may see that we come here to study. Struggle for the sake of our country. Going back home to be skillful doctors, engineers, accountants, lawyers, economists, managers and ustazerssss…heh! After that, build a career, buy a house, car and whatsoever you want, get married, have children and end of life! Walla…what a wonderful life! But, are those things that you really want to achieve? Have a little thought. Are you sure you have a complete plan for your life’s planning? Are you satisfied with what you have done? Do you feel like missing anything? Huh… what you think is the purpose of your life?

And I have not created the jinn and the men except that they should serve Me.
Surah Az-Zariyaat: 56

Deep inside my heart, I don’t really have a plan either for short term or long term run. Plan either for the sake of Allah or for the sake of my country. As Nabi s.a.w said ‘Balighu ‘anni walau ayah’-sampaikan olehmu daripada ajaranku walaupun satu ayat, that is what I’m going to do now. Tazkirah especially for me and also for you!

Sometimes, we feel we are weak to face our friends and deal with their perceptions and stands. Really feel very stressful and tension! Although they know we are doing good deeds, but for them all the good deeds are ‘bad’. They perceived you as an extremist! You are in the wrong side! You get along with bad guys (from their perspective)!

Sometimes, when we talk to them about the truth, they will deny you. They will say you have been influenced by the undergrounders. You are country’s traitor! You are that, you are this or you are Al-Qaeda, JI…heh! Although, we are just doing what is good for us as a Muslim and nothing more than that. Unfortunately, the one who goes against us will always be a Muslim, almost in every case. So sad, so bad. And they go against us becos they know we are telling the truth.

For some people, when we are talking about religion or about Islam, they will say, “I think it is enough what I’ve got before, this is time to go for the future”. What is your future? Or may be people will reply like this, “I just want to be myself, I want freedom, I want to do what I want to do”. Have you think who are you before? Moreover, people can also answer like this, “Islam? My parents don’t really care about my Islam, why you want to interfere?”. Who are you and what differentiate you from your parents? Too hard, right? But, these are all the tribulations that we will face and deal as daie’. Either you like it or not, you have to go against them. These are the challenges and the rules that Allah has determined for those who stand in the path. The path that we call it as Jalan Dakwah. Take it! And MUST go through it. We are not Anwar Ibrahim to make dakwah with red carpet. We are ordinary people. Rakyat Biasa! Rasulullah didn’t take an easy way to convey the message from Allah. Rasulullah declined position, wealth and women only to say ‘La Ilah Illallah, Muhamad Rasulullah’. And everyone knows Rasulullah was from a respected family among the Quraisy. So, follow the sunnah of Rasulullah. Otherwise, the jahannam will serve us!

The choice is yours! You can find all dalils if you want, but the choice is yours. Many people know dalils about dakwah, but not all of them understand and practice it. Be Wise and Be Brave!

Prayer For New Year...

2005-01-01T00:28:00.000Z

AD-DUA’ SILLAH-HUL MUKMIN
"*~ Ila hilas tu lilfirdausi ahla.. Wala aqwa 'alannaril jahimi..Allah.. Fahabblitau batau waghfir.. waghfir zunuubii.. Fainnakagho firuzzanbil 'azimi ~*^" "*~

Me and the Gang (without IK-taking the picture)Umrah really give me the most invaluable moment to remember. Hope to be there again!

I don’t know. I just feeling don’t know. After about 3 months leaving my country and family, I feel like I miss something. But, I don’t know what something is. Family? Friends? Schools? Foods? No! No! I call my parents on phone every week. I get along with my friends everyday in UK compare to at home. I don’t feel like I miss my previous school, I think I got better place now. Foods?!...huh, impossible!

Well, I feel really bad this time. Feel like there are so many things I don’t know and so many things must be learned. Learn Arabic language, Sirah Nabawi, Mujahiddin of Islam, Fiqh and skills make me feel I’m too far for all those things. I feel weak and my strength washes away. I feel like I am no one, nothing compare to others.

Sometimes, I keep thinking how should Allah accept me when the time is calling? How is my performance during my days in this world? How is my ibadah? I am fear thinking about those questions. Will Allah accept me? I’m afraid and I always hope!

What could I do? Tell me what I should do! Even now I feel…feel empty. Maybe people see me as happy-go-lucky kind of people but sometimes I got time when I feel very moody. There are a lot of things in my heart and in my mind. And every one of them makes me feel miserable and need to be settling down.

However, nothing much could I do as time will decide it…I think! Only dua’ will make me feel better and Alhamdulillah Allah still gives me the opportunity to ‘taste’ the nikmat of dua’. I think that is the ‘weapon’ that all Muslims should grab. It gives me the strength to strive. The courage that I need to live. The soul and the body!

Actually, I really have nothing to talk. Since it is a New Year eve, I hope 2005 will be the better year than before. And I leave this entry with AD-DUA’ SILLAH-HUL MUKMIN…

Doa bermula dari hati yang gelisah.

Dengarkanlah gejolaknya.

Doa adalah suatu kerinduan terhadap Kasih kita yang sebenarnya.

Ikutilah bimbingannya.

Doa itu seperti kebun.

Peliharalah maka doa akan berbuah.

Doa boleh dilakukan dengan berbagai cara.

Lakukanlah sesuai dengan cara anda.

Berdoalah selalu, tapi jadualkan juga waktu khusus.

Roh, seperti halnya badan, memerlukan latihan-latihan teratur.

Buatlah doa anda pendek.

Cinta memerlukan sedikit kata-kata.

Berdoalah di mana saja anda berada.

ALLAH sentiasa dekat bersama.

Jika anda menginginkan sesuatu, bertanyalah pada diri anda sendiri,

"Apakah saya menginginkan hal yang dikehendaki ALLAH?"

ALLAH mengkehendaki kebaikan sejati anda.

Bila doa anda menjadi kering dan rutin, teruskan saja.

Tanah yang kering kontang menyambut datangnya hujan.

Bawalah kemarahan anda dalam doa.

Logam yang panas boleh dibentuk.

Bila anda berdosa dan terus menerus jatuh, berdoalah.

ALLAH tetap mencintai taubat anda.

Berdoalah bila anda cemas.

Doa membuat segala sesuatu boleh difikirkan dan dipertimbangkan secara sihat.

Bila kerana sesuatu hal anda tidak boleh berdoa, bersantailah.

Keinginan untuk berdoa itu sudah merupakan doa.

Bila doa mengajak anda untuk mengambil risiko, beranilah.

ALLAH akan mendukung anda.

Bila anda merasa sedih atau menyesal, menangislah.

Airmata adalah doa dari hati.

Jika anda tidak menyukai seseorang, berdoalah untuknya.

Doa mengungkapkan ALLAH yang Maha Tersembunyi.

Bila anda menerima khabar buruk, tabahlah.

Doa memberi cahaya.

Bila penyakit, usia, kepedihan, atau kecemasan merosak focus anda, bersantailah.

ALLAH Maha Memahami.

Jika doa membuat anda jadi pasif dan acuh tak acuh, itu bukanlah doa.

Doa sejati akan membuahkan keprihatinan dan pelaksanaan.

Gunakanlah saat-saat tenang untuk berdoa.

Ketenangan menarik anda kepada ALLAH Maha Besar.

Gunakanlah saat-saat gawat untuk berdoa.

Huru-hara adalah tanda makhluk sedang memerlukan ALLAH.

Berdoalah bila anda merasa kesepian.

Doa membuat anda ditemani oleh para malaikat.

Bila hidup ini terasa kejam dan tak adil, berdoalah berterusan.

ALLAH menentukan segalanya.

Bila hati anda penuh dengan rasa syukur, biarkanlah demikian.

Kasih Allah sedang mengalir di dalam diri anda.

Bila anda terpesona di penciptaan, biarkanlah demikian.

Allah sedang menunjukkan kekuasaanNya pada anda.

Masukkanlah seluruh dunia dalam doa anda.

Kedamaian tergantung padanya.

Berdoalah sebelum tidurmu.

Tidur adalah doa dari manusia yang merasa aman dengan cinta ALLAH.

Berdoa adalah bernafas.

Lakukanlah dalam-dalam dan anda akan dipenuhi dengan kehidupan.

Bila anda mulai merasa maju dalam kehidupan doa, fikirkan sekali lagi.

Kehidupan taqarrub ILLALLAH itu lebih dalam daripada perasaan dan pengalaman anda

Hanya doa senjata kita wahai sahabatku...AD-DUA’ SILLAH-HUL MUKMIN

And Still, I Am Going Nowhere...

2004-12-30T22:38:00.000Z

Today I was a little rushed to the Friday prayer,…well deep inside my heart, I feel meaningless going to the mosque so early as the khutbah will be given in Arabic before it is translated into English. I know that Rasulullah s.a.w said, “Any person who takes a bath on Friday like the bath of Janaba and then goes for the prayer (in the first hour i.e. early), it is as if he had sacrificed a camel (in Allah's cause); and whoever goes in the second hour it is as if he had sacrificed a cow; and whoever goes in the third hour, then it is as if he had sacrificed a horned ram; and if one goes in the fourth hour, then it is as if he had sacrificed a hen; and whoever goes in the fifth hour then it is as if he had offered an egg. When the Imam comes out (i.e. starts delivering the Khutba), the angels present themselves to listen to the Khutbah”(Narrated by Abu Hurairah).

However, if I sit down listening to the first part of the khutbah (which is in Arabic) makes me feel boring and I will fall asleep. I know it is my fault not to learn Arabic before but I’m trying now.

Listening to the khutbah (hmmm…of course from the English part), the Imam talked about helping your brothers who are in great hard time, who are needed (more or less something like that from my understanding cos he was talking about the tsunami previously). For those who are living in oversea for whatever cause should be grateful cos UK, Ireland, US or Australia, we gain money which has a higher value compare to the currency in most countries in the south and south-east Asia…moreover a third world country like Somalia (which is also affected). If we donate £1, it is equal to ≈ RM7. If we donate £10, we donate about RM70. And it is the same if the donation money goes to country like Indonesia, Sri Lanka and India. May be £1 in UK, we cannot buy a food for lunch or dinner or even for a breakfast, but with £1 in Indonesia, we can cover meals for a day, maybe more.

If we walking down the street, entering every shop, we will see all shops are having a box for donation for tsunami funds. Yes, it is good for us to see and encourage people to help each other although we are not from the same race. And we are very grateful for that. But, please think a step forward…are we going to let them do the job? Just think a wee bit further; the money will go under a non-muslim association for example The Association of Christian Appeal or Church Union or whatever the name is. Just think, these people are using their religion to do the job and people who received this will think, Christians are very generous and Christianity teaches its believers to do good deeds. So, people will easily attract to Christianity. So, what have you done or what have we done to show about Islam? Have we made a step for it? Or are we thinking about it? For whichever aspects, have you think how should you contribute to Islam?

As the Imam also said that, Muslims are brother and brother must help each other.

The Prophet said, "A believer to another believer is like a building whose different parts enforce each other." The Prophet then clasped his hands with the fingers interlaced. (At that time) the Prophet was sitting and a man came and begged or asked for something. The Prophet faced us and said, "Help and recommend him and you will receive the reward for it, and Allah will bring about what He will through His prophet’s tongue” (Narrated by Abu Musa)

We are lucky cos in UK, the fundraisings are very impressive and effective. Just create it, people will donate generously. Moreover, we have association like FOSIS, Muslim Aid and Islamic Centres to organize all the fundraising to make sure Islam also have its part in the cooperation to help those who are named as ‘victims of tsunami’.

I personally don’t think we really need to have an association and so from that only we can move. Just use your line in universities or go there by yourselves and give hand as what you think you could do. I think for a tragedy like this, we don’t need to wait for a ‘force’ to solve the problem. If we think we are responsible or we feel we are accountable for everyone of us especially Muslims, for sure we have done something. But again, have we done it? So many things happened to us as Muslim. Our Holy land of Al-Quds is not ‘ours’ anymore by authority or dignity but still Muslims all over the world feel happy for that (not all Muslim feel like that…hope no offence). Are we waiting for Imam Mahdi or Prophet Isa a.s. and then only we are going for jihad? It’s all in your head! It is running in your blood! Those who have recited the great phrases of Syahdatain are accountable to sustain everything in Islam in the cause of Allah.

And We will most certainly try you with somewhat of fear and hunger and loss of property and lives and fruits; and give good news to the patient- Al-Baqarah:155

Verily, these are all from Allah and Allah will reward us for our patient in the time of musibah. Among us, there will be a group of people who will say not to help the effort for the cause of Allah and they would rather more than happy to see everyone and every Muslim divided and fall apart. Verily, they are munafiqqin. Hope we are not among those munafiqqin…Nauzubillah.

Tsunami: Disaster or Warning: What You Think?

2004-12-30T07:49:00.000Z

"*~ Do ye feel secure that He Who is in heaven will not cause you to be swallowed up by the earth when it shakes (as in an earthquake)?- Al-Mulk: 16~*^" "*~

My heart beating faster once I received that Malaysia was blasted by huge wave tsunami. A tsunami caused by a powerful earthquake with a scale of 9.0 Richter scale was believed is initiated from a series of small earthquakes from the plate of south-east Asia. I can’t imagine myself at that time thinking about my family in KB, JB, KL and anywhere…any possible events came across my mind…so terrible, I even couldn’t close my eyes!

Alhamdulillah, nothing going wrong with my family, but thinking about other victims was enough to make me feel like ‘we don’t know what will happen to us, they’re all in Allah’s big plan, Lauh Mahfuz’. Verily, all creatures, they are all obeying Allah as what has been written to be known as Sunnatullah. And this is an inclusive one. Sometimes, I tried to think why such events are now vigorously taking place in south-east Asia or Asia as whole? Black Day in Tak Bai, Bird Flu, series of events in Indonesia, flood in KB and recently Tsunami. I was once thinking how come Malaysia could have an earthquake becos from my knowledge; Malaysia is free-bounded from catastrophic area of earthquakes and volcanoes. However, I remember a verse in Al-Quran that Allah had reminded us about this.

“So We took each one in his sin; of them was he on whom We sent a hurricane, and of them was he who was overtaken by the (Awful) Cry, and of them was he whom We caused the earth to swallow, and of them was he whom We drowned. It was not for Allah to wrong them, but they wronged themselves” - Surah Al-Ankabut: 40

This verse made me think that everything can happen to us if we going astray. However, did we take any lessons from the disasters that happened around us? Did we feel angry when many Muslims were killed in Tak Bai? Did we feel our dignity has been taken off from tragedy in Acheh? Did we care about Palestine, Darfur, Iraq, Chechen and Kashmir? What have we cared about?

If not becos of the tsunami, we will be served by the beloved government with 3 mega concerts to celebrate New Year. Is this the thing that Islam Hadhari is promoting? If not becos of the tsunami, nobody care about du’a, solat hajat and prayers. If not becos of the tsunami, it is difficult to make a fundraising.

Everybody knows that most of concerts held in Malaysia ‘invited’ sins, as maksiat is out of control. For example, Konsert Sure Heboh! It is reported that thousands of condoms are found after the concert. This thing encourages zina and we are promoting zina with every concert. Why not we organising majlis doa selamat or solat hajat for the sake of our country, ummah and our deen, ISLAM! When a disaster like this happen to us, we see a lot of individuals come to donate for funds. Alhamdulillah, that’s good but how many people will donate if we ask for fund to maahad tahfiz school or fund to build new mosque. Verily, people will never go for repentance until they themselves get the ‘answer’ from Allah!

“Say: He is able to send punishment upon you from above you or from beneath your feet, or to bewilder you with dissension and make you taste the tyranny one of another. See how We display the revelations so that they may understand” – Surah Al-An’am: 65

We know everyone is sad with was happened and many people including leaders from all over the world convey a condolence to us. They also send a hand to help in an affected area. However, for those people in an affected area, we requested victims to be patient besides statement of condolence. However, do we really feel the situation by action or only by speech? Congratulation for those, who actively solved the problem with society, but how is about others? We are no more than a parrot who greet people but never understanding what is saying. We are sympathised to the victims but sympathy is not enough with only condolence and material support with regret towards the power of Almighty Allah has never emerged! All events must be referred to Allah as The Supervisor of events. It is useless to feel sympathy but at the end, we didn’t take the lesson as Allah Who is the mastermind of all. And Allah The One and Only, THE ALMIGHTY!

“And warn, for warning profiteth believers. I created the jinn and humankind only that they might worship Me.” Surah Az-Zaariyaat: 55-56

Back From Mainland of UK

2004-12-28T19:03:00.000Z

Alhamdulillah my journey during the winter of christmas period was quite breathtaking. Of course, experiencing good sceneries in a range of mountains, waterfalls, birds and natural elements make me feel myself too small and to Allah all praise should be...Subhanallah!

Well, just come back from Glasgow, but I don't want to write about my journey yet becos I was surprised now! Quite surprised actually. Hmmm..surprised? Maybe it's not a suitable word...suppose to be 'happy' i think. Guess what? I got pictures of my niece from my father. And I feel very very happy! However, I'm still not satisfied cos the pictures not really good...quite blurred. So sad! For a long time I asked my family to give me her pictures and only now I could see and recognise her. bad bad uncle...am I?

The chubby Amnee Sufina, my first ever niece!

Forgot to tell you that her name is AMNEE SUFINA! Nice name right...but I can't remember what is the meaning anyway...again bad bad uncle.

After about 3 months (she was born on 22/9/04, just 3 days after I departed from KL) my mom telling me that amnee looks like me when i was a kid, hmmm... i think she's right, heh! :p she looks very chubby, isn't she? rase tak sabar nak balik mesia plak...huhuhuhu. Feel like want to cubit her cheek...argghhh why i chose to study oversea haaa? Now I miss her, cannot dukung her and cannot main2 with her...huhuhu.

My little sister also became like me too. Although she is in Mesia, but she couldn't see her until the last raye cos my parents were busy to handle so many things for my second and third brothers' majlis sambut menantu. hahahaha padan muke die, takleh tgk amnee...but at least she can see amnee although it's a wee bit late but not so late.

For me, I don't know when could i see her cos I'm planning not going to Mesia during this summer, but still not decided yet. If there are any offers for tiket to Mesia, why not? Which one should I choose aaa, tour europe or Mesia or Amnee? If I'm not going back this summer, it means I will see amnee in 2006 and she will be 2 year-old already! That time she will be fear of me...ye la, tak penah jumpe mesti tak knal. Nak balik ke tanak nih?

Well, she is the first daughter for my first brother and of course my first sister-in-law. Hope amnee will bring more rizq and happiness to them..Amin!

I will talk about my journey in mainland next time becos I don't have any pictures, don't have camera how should I take pictures. But my friend has them, just waiting for him to send me all the pictures. I will talk about it when I got the pictures okay. So don't worry, the time will come! ;p

Just Get Started

2004-12-27T19:51:00.000Z

Assalamualaikum and hello!

This is the first time i'm writing a blog...well officially the first time. Actually, i had one but then the first one has been totally forgotten...cam dibiarkan berkubur...coz i'm not really commited to write and don't know much about blogging!

I remember my math teacher back in banting said...'it is better to progress slowly rather than stand still'...thinking about that, i feel like starting a blog and keep writing...InsyaAllah this one will be the long-lasting blog...hopefully. Anyway, credit to my friend in MMU for the courage and her kindness to teach me in blogging...well,dead on!

So friends, always keep pace with me!

just looking around with my online photo, then all of the sudden, i get some kind of feeling towards this photo...but don't know why? ;p